Today I learned that straightening things out feels good. I haven’t had the best relationship with my sister. It’s been estranged to say the least. There are things she’s done that haven’t sit well with me for years. Today I was forced to finally give her a call. I had texted my uncle the Gofundme page I made for my school shit. And he called me up and was disgruntled I didn’t come to him first. He told me to call my sister and let her know about the money that I needed. I was timid at first because my sister and I hadn’t spoke for so long and last time we did I wasn’t on my best behavior. But he assured me that if I’d reach out to my sister he would later call her and other family members to see what they could do. So I called my sister up and began to first deconstruct what the issue I had with her was. After doing so I immediately felt like there was some sort of weight was off my shoulders. I physically and mentally felt better. I had been holding resentment in my heart and mind for years and honestly I was shocked at how good I felt. Even though she apogilized and said she didn’t intend for her actions to affect me so deeply it really didn’t matter. It was just the act that I finally flicked away what was knawing at me for awhile. I feel healthier. I feel happier. And I wish I did it sooner. So today I learned that holding resentment in your heart is only going to hurt me. If it’s too difficult to let it go then the next best thing is communicating the negative feelings I have with the other parties involved. It’s not about them at all. It’s about throwing away all that is weighing me down.