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In this deeply honest episode of Subconsciously, Shea opens up about the bittersweet journey of outgrowing people, places, and even past versions of yourself. From friendships that no longer feel like home to seasons of change that stretch your faith and identity, Shea reflects on what it means to evolve.. even when it hurts.

She dives into the beauty of becoming, the sacredness of growth, and the peace that comes with choosing alignment over familiarity. Whether you’re grieving someone still alive or learning to embrace a new chapter, this episode will remind you that outgrowing doesn’t mean you’ve become better... it means you’ve become different, and that difference deserves space to breathe.

✨ Topics:

• The grief of outgrowing people
• Finding peace in change
• Faith and purpose in new seasons
• Learning to release and realign

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In this episode of Subconsciously, Shea lets her mind do exactly what it does best... wander. There’s no script, no plan, just the kind of honest, scattered stream of consciousness that feels like catching up with an old friend.

What starts with a rant about car traffic quickly spirals into talk about her current monthly favorites, random news stories that caught her attention, and an inevitable detour into corny dad jokes that make you groan and laugh at the same time. Somewhere in the mix, Halloween makes its entrance and her thoughts about Halloween and how she used to feel about it versus being a Christian and viewing Halloween. 

It’s an episode that doesn’t follow a map but somehow finds its way — a comforting reminder that not every conversation has to be deep, structured, or tied up neatly with a bow. Sometimes, the beauty of being human is just thinking out loud.

So if your own mind has been running in circles lately, grab a drink, sit back, and join Shea on this unpredictable little journey of thoughts, tangents, and everything in between.

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After nearly a year away from the mic, Shea returns to Subconsciously with one of her most honest and reflective episodes yet. “You Waited Too Long” explores what it feels like to believe you’ve missed your chance—to think you’re behind in life, that the opportunities you once dreamed of have already passed, or that everyone else is moving forward while you’re still standing still.

In this deeply personal conversation, Shea opens up about her own journey through self-doubt, comparison, and creative burnout. She revisits the part of her story where music once defined her purpose, and how stepping away from it made her question her identity. But through faith, healing, and a quiet rediscovery of passion, she learns that waiting isn’t wasted time—it’s preparation.

This episode touches on the quiet moments we don’t talk about enough: the feeling of being stuck, the fear of starting over, and the courage it takes to finally move when you’ve been standing still for too long. Shea reflects on performing again for the first time in three years, confronting imposter syndrome head-on, and realizing that growth often happens in the background while we’re still doubting ourselves.

In this episode, Shea shares:

• How to recognize when you’re keeping yourself “stuck” out of fear or comfort
• Why waiting doesn’t mean failure—it means you’re still becoming
• The importance of opening up to others and shifting perspective
• How to create new opportunities when it feels like you’ve missed your chance
• A personal story of returning to the stage after years of silence

If you’ve ever felt late to your own life, this episode is your reminder that there is no missed timing—only divine timing. You’re not behind. You’re right on schedule.

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Have you ever wondered what would happen if you stopped trying to change yourself and instead asked God to choose the perfect timing? After an emotional breakdown in my previous episode, I disappeared from podcasting while secretly battling a spiritual crisis that was pulling me back toward old destructive habits.

In this raw, vulnerable conversation, I share how one month away from my faith showed me what "hell" truly feels like—not flames, but the emptiness of living without divine connection. The testimony unfolds with a moment that can only be described as supernatural: a fellow believer receiving a vision during prayer that perfectly mirrored words I'd spoken in my previous episode, proving God had been listening even when I wasn't speaking to Him.

The centerpiece of this spiritual journey involves my eight-year smoking addiction and the surprising approach that finally worked. Instead of making promises I couldn't keep, I surrendered control entirely: "God, YOU tell me when I'll quit smoking because I'm tired of breaking promises." His answer—"end of February"—manifested in perfect timing when my vape died on Valentine's Day, the first day of vacation when I could manage withdrawal symptoms without work pressures.

This isn't just a story about quitting a bad habit; it's about discovering how joy becomes a choice regardless of circumstances, how God prepares ways before we even ask, and why authentic faith exists beyond the failures of religious communities. For anyone who's felt like they've wandered too far to return, this testimony offers hope that the way back is already being prepared.

Whether you're a devoted believer, someone curious about spirituality, or even someone who has been hurt by religion, this deeply personal conversation explores how finding purpose sometimes requires losing your way first—and how divine timing works even when we've given up on ourselves.

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Is it possible to uncover hidden gems within ourselves, much like the rice balls with hidden plums in "Fruits Basket"? Join me, Shea, as I reflect on the profound impact Jazzi's recent podcast takeover had on reigniting my love for anime and the healing journey of re-watching a beloved series. Through these episodes, I dive into the life lessons and emotional depths that "Fruits Basket" offers, particularly through the lens of characters like Kyo, whose honesty and introspection continue to resonate with me. This journey has reconnected me with my inner child, reminding me of the unseen personal qualities that deserve recognition and appreciation.

This episode isn't just about anime; it's a heartfelt discussion on battling mental health challenges and the search for personal purpose. I open up about the emotional exhaustion and numbness that cloud my perception of self-worth, sharing candid moments of vulnerability. Through a poignant conversation with a friend, I confront the harsh realities of feeling like a robot, questioning my progress, and yearning to rediscover the optimistic person I once was. The inner turmoil of comparing oneself to others becomes a focal point, shining a light on the complexities of self-acceptance and the fear of lacking inherent value.

Community and connection lie at the heart of this podcast, and your feedback is essential in nurturing this space. I invite you to engage through Instagram DMs and share your thoughts, as your support fuels the growth of Subconsciously. Together, we can create a supportive community where authenticity thrives. Stay tuned as my subconscious thoughts continue to lead us on a path of self-discovery and connection, with a promise to remain open and genuine in sharing this journey with you.

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Ever wondered what it's like to revisit the hobbies you loved as a child? Join special guest host, Jazzi, as she shares her playful and candid reflections on embracing life's transitions and reconnecting with our inner selves. From mental health and evolving friendships to the intricate dance of forming connections, we'll explore the beauty of returning to past hobbies and finding solace in the familiar. Try not to laugh too loudly as we keep the volume low to avoid waking Shea's family, and enjoy the new sound effects that humorously censor those unscripted moments.

Is disconnecting from social media truly liberating, or just an invitation for awkward social gatherings? Let's reflect on the surprising relief of a notification-free existence and the social quirks that happen when you're the only one not glued to a screen. She'll share her odd fear of monkeys and a chilling sleep paralysis episode involving a shadowy figure. Dive with Jazzi into the world of smartphones, the dual nature of technology, and its impact on our interactions and personal fears.

Come along as we explore how art and literature reshape our understanding of intimacy. We'll celebrate the profound nature of non-romantic connections in manga like "Chainsaw Man" and "Fruits Basket," where deep friendships challenge conventional expectations of romance. Reflect on the intimate yet non-sexual scenes, and how stories like these profoundly impact our perception of relationships. Plus, don't miss out on a heartfelt invitation to connect with Shea on Instagram, where she promises more subconscious musings and conversations that resonate long after the episode ends.

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In today’s episode, Shea takes us into an intimate 3 a.m. conversation about the complexities of trio friendships—those unique relationships involving three people. She reflects on her own experiences within trio friendships, diving deep into the dynamics, the challenges, and the moments that have shaped her perspective. Shea opens up about whether trio friendships can truly last and what makes them different from other types of relationships, unlocking powerful memories and truths along the way.

With vulnerability and honesty, Shea shares the lessons she’s learned from both the joys and the struggles of navigating these friendships. She invites listeners to explore their own experiences with trio dynamics and encourages them to reflect on how these relationships have impacted their lives. Open your heart and mind to fresh insights and new realizations about yourself, friendships, and the delicate balance of being part of a trio.

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In today’s empowering episode, Shea explores the rewarding and often underestimated journey of doing things and living life on your own terms. She opens up about the lessons she's learned through her personal experiences of embracing solo adventures, from traveling alone to making independent decisions. With a passionate and uplifting approach, Shea shares how stepping outside of your comfort zone and trusting yourself can lead to incredible growth, confidence, and freedom.

Throughout the episode, Shea encourages listeners to recognize the strength that comes from doing things by yourself, and she offers heartfelt advice on how to take that first step toward independence, no matter where you are in life. Whether you're someone who enjoys your own company or someone who needs a little push to start doing things solo, this episode is a powerful reminder that you are more capable than you realize.

So grab your headphones, listen alone, or share this with someone who might need that extra nudge to embrace their independence—you’ve got this!

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In today’s episode, Shea takes a raw and honest dive into her personal journey of self-acceptance—exploring both the struggles and breakthroughs along the way. She opens up about her challenges with truly accepting herself, especially in moments when life doesn’t feel "perfect" or when things aren't going as planned. Shea reflects on the contrast between the idealized notion of self-acceptance—where everything feels aligned—and the more complex, everyday reality of learning to embrace yourself through both the highs and lows.

She delves into the difficult yet powerful realizations she’s had about how true self-acceptance isn't about loving yourself only when things are going well, but about cultivating compassion and grace during life’s toughest moments. This episode invites you to expand your perspective and embrace the messy, imperfect road to self-acceptance, offering deep insights that will challenge the way you approach your own journey. Open your mind and heart as Shea uncovers the truth about accepting yourself, flaws and all.

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Shea kicks off 2025 by welcoming Subconsciously into the new year with a thought-provoking discussion about New Year’s resolutions and the deeper realities of goal-setting and personal transformation. In this episode, Shea takes a candid look at the pressure to change every January and explores what it really takes to set meaningful, sustainable goals. She dives into the complexities of self-improvement—challenging the notion of “new year, new me” and reflecting on the importance of growth that goes beyond surface-level resolutions.

Through her own experiences and insights, Shea uncovers the truth behind the struggle to change, offering listeners practical advice on how to approach goal-setting with intention and self-compassion. Whether you’re rethinking your resolutions or feeling stuck in the cycle of unrealized goals, this episode is all about embracing the journey of growth, no matter how imperfect or messy it may be.