When you suffer for the Lord it's something uplifting in ti. Versus you suffering for a aise that's cause less. Or someone who doesn't suffer or hasn't suffered for you. The most smallest act could make the biggest impact on your life. You have to decide to make decisions not in the moment of self gratification or our own desires but we have to begin to decide to act and make decisions based on who and what God wants!! I love you. It's hard to do easy to say but I knownyoull be okay. If God isn't the driver of your life okay that's fine with me. Just know though even if you don't embrace Him He still sees you as amazing NOT HOW THEY SEE YOU. I DONT CARE WHAT NO ONE TELLS YOU. JESUS WILL TELL YOU HOW MUH YOUR AMAZING TO HIM!