One year ago, Jill lost both her cats and the connection with the man she loved started falling apart. Now, the morning after Christmas (a holiday she hasn't celebrated in years), she's sitting with mounting losses: him, her cats, her therapist (on maternity leave), and still no SSDI decision. She talks about the freeze response - when there are too many losses at once to cope with - and what it means to survive everything simultaneously without knowing how or why. It’s dark, and it’s honest - that’s what survival often is.