Today I Learned I gotta take it seriously. I crack jokes all the time and I think that is the reason why I’m usually in a good mood. But it’s now dawned upon me that always cracking jokes isn’t the best way I could conduct myself. Even though having a well developed sense of humor has gotten me through a lot I’ve sometimes laughed off things I shouldn’t of laughed off. I’ve laughed off behaving poorly just to cope with the embarassement when I catch myself. I’ve laughed off aggression from other people because I wasn’t courageous enough to directly confront them. In times were it was necessary to push pass nervousness and man up I just laughed to conceal my anxiety. It’s a bad habit. Laughing things off was a way for me gloss over the black truths. Thinking about it more not being as serious as I should of been resulted in me wasting a lot of opportunities to move forward. Dropping out of school to become a rapper is clichè and silly. Thinking that every girl that rejects me is totally wrong is kinda silly. Expecting people to forget my past and give me the respect I want is kind of silly. Being more serious is going to put in a better posistion to get to where I want to go. Being more serious is going help me fully utilize the opportunities that are right in front of me.