This podcast became my outlet and therapy. I can't open up like this with people. Not this raw and not this honest. I need this. My world was turned upside down again in the worst way possible. I want to wake up from this bad dream but it's not happening. I'm stuck in this nightmare. 

You don't have to understand why I'm making my grief and pain so public you just have to understand I need it to keep my head above water.

 

Listener discretion advise this episode talks about a recent death.