In this episdoe of Deep Dive we explore a transformative reinterpretation of suffering and personal "brokenness" within the context of Buddhist practice and Western therapy. The author, after fifty years of spiritual effort, challenges the conventional "repair paradigm" that views illness and emotional struggles as individual failures to be fixed. Instead, drawing inspiration from the Vimalakīrti Sutra, the text suggests that a bodhisattva's sickness can be a manifestation of profound compassion and interconnectedness, directly experiencing the world's suffering. This perspective reframes personal anxiety and depression not merely as individual pathology, but as "appropriate sensitivity" and participation in a collective unwellness, shifting the focus from individual transcendence to mutual aid and collective healing. The author ultimately proposes that true practice involves embracing this shared brokenness with love, rather than seeking its complete eradication, seeing it as the very "pulse of compassion."