Finally, I can delight in my inability to conquer... on my own. I would much rather do the thing not only with God but for Him. When I began I was PUMPED because I could finally show how good I am, how strong I am, and how faithful I am. That only got me so far, accomplishing the mission can only get me so far when I rely on myself or put myself first. God said, "I will let you get as far as you can before you realize you're on the wrong path." The Holy Spirit helped me discern good from evil and give the evil to Jesus, repent, and correct my path.