She was Transgender. Now She's Transformed

Kyla Gillespie of Renewed and Transformed Ministries spent over a decade fighting feelings of gender dysphoria and same-sex attraction before deciding it was best to transition from Kyla to Bryson. Years later, God called her back to Himself...and to her God-given gender.

Her story shows what it actually looks like for the church to love someone through this journey.

HIGHLIGHTS
✅ How two formative childhood moments planted seeds of confusion that would grow into over a decade of gender dysphoria and same-sex attraction.
✅ Why Kyla chose to transition at 30 years old and the exhaustion of being misgendered.
✅ When a pastor's wife obeyed the Holy Spirit, sat down beside Bryson, and was used as a vessel of God's love.
✅ What the church gets wrong about engaging LGBTQ+ people

QUOTES
❝I just wanted people to stop misgendering me and stop the pain and the tension that I felt.
❝I thought he would just say, come as you are and follow me, Bryson. But that wasn't the case.
❝Nothing is impossible for God, so keep praying for the people in your lives that you want God to set free.

RESOURCES
➡️ Renewed and Transformed Ministries — kylagillespie.com
➡️ Book: Transformed by Kyla Gillespie. Available on Amazon

TAKE ACTION
If you're struggling with sexual sin and want help, you can experience transformational community and Biblical teaching that has impacted the lives of men around the world. Join The Armory at restoredministries.ca/armory.

Brady Cone grew up feeling different and was ashamed of it. As a young teen, he began experiencing same-sex attraction in a church culture that only spoke about it with condemnation.

At 13, after hearing a pastor say he wished all homosexuals would die, Brady went home and nearly took his own life.

Then, he entered years of addiction, secrecy, and a double life until unexpected grace in college started a lifelong journey of surrender and transformation in Christ.

✅ What happened when he tried to take his life
✅ The confusion he experienced with same-sex attraction
✅ The difference between suppression and surrender
✅ How Brady found a new identity
✅ What it means to “apply the gospel” daily

❝ My sexuality is not who I am—Christ is.
❝ We don’t just repress sin—we surrender it.
❝ The goal isn’t the removal of struggle—the goal is Jesus.
❝ I am more than the thing I struggle with.

➡️ Calibrate Ministries: calibrateministries.com
➡️ Calibrate Conversations Podcast
➡️ Parent Support — Help for families navigating LGBTQ questions

If you experience sexual bondage of any kind, you don’t have to walk alone. You can find powerful resources and a community of men to journey with at restoredministries.ca/armory.

Brady Cone grew up feeling different and was ashamed of it. As a young teen, he began experiencing same-sex attraction in a church culture that only spoke about it with condemnation.

At 13, after hearing a pastor say he wished all homosexuals would die, Brady went home and nearly took his own life.

Then, he entered years of addiction, secrecy, and a double life until unexpected grace in college started a lifelong journey of surrender and transformation in Christ.

✅ What happened when he tried to take his life
✅ The confusion he experienced with same-sex attraction
✅ The difference between suppression and surrender
✅ How Brady found a new identity
✅ What it means to “apply the gospel” daily

❝ My sexuality is not who I am—Christ is.
❝ We don’t just repress sin—we surrender it.
❝ The goal isn’t the removal of struggle—the goal is Jesus.
❝ I am more than the thing I struggle with.

➡️ Calibrate Ministries: calibrateministries.com
➡️ Calibrate Conversations Podcast
➡️ Parent Support — Help for families navigating LGBTQ questions

If you experience sexual bondage of any kind, you don’t have to walk alone.

You can find powerful resources and a community of men to journey with at restoredministries.ca/armory.

Mary Ann Otley knows what it's like when the floor falls out from underneath you. Molested by her father between the ages of 13 and 15, she spent decades numbing the pain — through work, alcohol, cocaine, and anything else that could quiet the acid-like anxiety in her chest.

It wasn't until a retired missionary named Elsie sat across from her and asked four simple words — "what are you feeling?" — that everything began to change. That led to Mary Ann encountering Jesus in a life-changing way.

Now Mary Ann leads Love Triumphs!, a ministry helping women and couples encounter Jesus in the raw, unfiltered places of their hearts through a process called Journaling with Jesus.

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HIGHLIGHTS

✅ How molestation by her father shattered Mary Ann's sense of identity — and why she spent decades trying to reinvent herself instead of heal.

✅ The four words that broke the dam: what a retired missionary asked that no one had ever asked Mary Ann before — and how it opened the door to her first real encounter with Jesus.

✅ What Mary Ann saw in that prayer room: Jesus walking into the memory, pinning a nine-foot demon to the wall with a push pin, and flooding the room with light.

✅ Why deliverance alone didn't work — and the wisdom of God in letting Mary Ann see Jesus fight for her instead.

✅ How Jesus restored her identity one piece at a time: a gown that removed shame, a crown that restored dignity, a ring that restored belonging, and the words "you're my princess."

✅ The full restoration story — how Mary Ann went from hating her father to praying with him weekly in the last year of his life.

✅ What Journaling with Jesus is, how it works, and why it helps people hear God when nothing else has.

✅ Why running to Jesus — not away from him — is the path out of sin, and how he responds to a stumbling child very differently than religion tells us he does.

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QUOTES

❝The more transparent I am with God, the more I experience Him.

❝My problem was that I wanted things fixed. But God has a different plan. His plan is to guide me in love.

❝He's not reacting to our sin. He's responding to a child that tripped up, was deceived, and wants to be set free.

❝Without listening to God, healing is an event. When you do listen to God, healing is a lifestyle.

❝Don't ask him what you should do. Ask him what he wants you to know. Most of the time, he wants to do the doing.

❝If we just made room for Jesus, he'd blow our socks off.

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RESOURCES

➡️ Love Triumphs — Journaling with Jesus groups, couples sessions, facilitator training, and more: http://lovetriumphs.com

➡️ Journaling with Jesus Book — 52 guided prayer sessions

➡️ Come to Me Discipleship — 3-month discipleship on how to pray like Elsie

➡️ Journaling with Jesus Facilitator Training — available every August

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TAKE ACTION

If you're struggling with sexual sin and want help, you can experience transformational community and Biblical teaching that has impacted the lives of men around the world. Join The Armory at http://restoredministries.ca/armory.

Mary Ann Otley knows what it's like when the floor falls out from underneath you. Molested by her father between the ages of 13 and 15, she spent decades numbing the pain — through work, alcohol, cocaine, and anything else that could quiet the acid-like anxiety in her chest. It wasn't until a retired missionary named Elsie sat across from her and asked four simple words — "what are you feeling?" — that everything began to change. Now Mary Ann leads Love Triumphs, a ministry helping women and couples encounter Jesus in the raw, unfiltered places of their hearts through a process called Journaling with Jesus.

HIGHLIGHTS

✅ How molestation by her father shattered Mary Ann's sense of identity — and why she spent decades trying to reinvent herself instead of heal.

✅ The four words that broke the dam: what a retired missionary asked that no one had ever asked Mary Ann before — and how it opened the door to her first real encounter with Jesus.

✅ What Mary Ann saw in that prayer room: Jesus walking into the memory, pinning a nine-foot demon to the wall with a push pin, and flooding the room with light.

✅ Why deliverance alone didn't work — and the wisdom of God in letting Mary Ann see Jesus fight for her instead.

✅ How Jesus restored her identity one piece at a time: a gown that removed shame, a crown that restored dignity, a ring that restored belonging, and the words "you're my princess."

✅ The full restoration story — how Mary Ann went from hating her father to praying with him weekly in the last year of his life.

✅ What Journaling with Jesus is, how it works, and why it helps people hear God when nothing else has.

✅ Why running to Jesus — not away from him — is the path out of sin, and how he responds to a stumbling child very differently than religion tells us he does.

QUOTES

❝The more transparent I am with God, the more I experience Him.❞

❝My problem was that I wanted things fixed. But God has a different plan. His plan is to guide me in love.❞

❝He's not reacting to our sin. He's responding to a child that tripped up, was deceived, and wants to be set free.❞

❝Without listening to God, healing is an event. When you do listen to God, healing is a lifestyle.❞

❝Don't ask him what you should do. Ask him what he wants you to know. Most of the time, he wants to do the doing.❞

❝If we just made room for Jesus, he'd blow our socks off.❞

RESOURCES

➡️ Love Triumphs — Journaling with Jesus groups, couples sessions, facilitator training, and more: lovetriumphs.com

➡️ Journaling with Jesus Book — 52 guided prayer sessions

➡️ Come to Me Discipleship — 3-month discipleship on how to pray like Elsie

➡️ Journaling with Jesus Facilitator Training — available every August

TAKE ACTION

If you're struggling with sexual sin and want help, you can experience transformational community and Biblical teaching that has impacted the lives of men around the world. Join The Armory at restoredministries.ca/armory.

Sathiya Sam has spent eight years helping men get to the roots of pornography addiction — not just quit a behavior, but actually change. A pastor's kid who got exposed to porn in his Christian school's computer lab at age 11, Sathiya spent five years grinding through streak counts and accountability software before he discovered what actually works. Now he's pioneering a message about emotional awareness, heart transformation, and identity — and he joins Matt to break down how AI and OnlyFans are changing the pornography landscape in ways most men aren't prepared for.

HIGHLIGHTS

✅ Why streak counting is one of the most futile things a man can do — and the one number Sathiya actually recommends tracking instead.

✅ How Sathiya went from a Christian school computer lab at age 11 to planning his entire university schedule around pornography — and what finally broke the cycle after five years of trying.

✅ The three core roots beneath pornography addiction: emotional unawareness, wounds of the past, and a shattered identity — and how addressing all three is what Deep Clean is built on.

✅ Why AI porn is the most dangerous evolution yet — it doesn't just offer content, it offers a fully customized intimate experience manicured to your exact wants.

✅ The OnlyFans truth nobody talks about: the chat that feels so personal? It's a team of virtual assistants trained to keep you curious and coming back.

✅ Why even knowing you're talking to a bot isn't always enough to make a man stop — and what that reveals about the real nature of the addiction.

✅ The faith gap: why the uncomfortable space between where you are and where God is calling you isn't failure — it's the very place where sanctification happens.

✅ Why freedom isn't binary — and how thinking of it as a spectrum changes everything about how you pursue it.

QUOTES

❝Porn addiction and all sexual issues at a core level are intimacy issues. We're ultimately trying to resolve this fundamental need to be seen, known, loved, and accepted.❞

❝Until the pain of your sin is greater than the reward of living without it, most people don't make a move.❞

❝AI is providing a very intimate experience manicured to exactly our wants — and that's going to make it very difficult to resist in the days ahead.❞

❝Salvation is a moment. Sanctification is a lifetime.❞

❝Most of my journey was getting 1% better every single day — and then I looked back six months later and thought, son of a gun, look at that.❞

❝Maybe enjoy the process a little bit. That fuels your freedom way more than any gritting down and shaming ever would.❞

RESOURCES

➡️ Deep Clean Coaching — program, podcast, and book: deepcleancoaching.com

➡️ The Man Within Podcast

➡️ The Last Relapse — Sathiya's book, available free at deepcleancoaching.com

TAKE ACTION

If you're struggling with sexual sin and want help, you can experience transformational community and Biblical teaching that has impacted the lives of men around the world. Join The Armory at restoredministries.ca/armory.

Dr. Kim Kimberling has spent over 40 years as a counselor and marriage therapist helping people navigate the things the church often tiptoes around — including the devastating and lasting effects of sexual abuse.

With nearly 4 million people reached through Awesome Marriage, Dr. Kim brings both clinical wisdom and deep faith to one of the most complex topics in human experience. He joins Matt to talk about what sexual abuse actually is, how it hides in plain sight, and what real healing looks like for survivors and their spouses.

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HIGHLIGHTS

✅ Why sexual abuse doesn't have to be violent to be real — and why the church's silence around non-violent abuse leaves so many victims without language for what happened to them.

✅ How unaddressed abuse goes dormant for years, then surfaces in marriage — sometimes as early as the honeymoon — through avoidance, shutdown, and broken trust.

✅ The lie that it's your fault, and the simple but powerful reframe Dr. Kim uses with survivors to help them see themselves the way God does.

✅ How male victims of female abusers experience unique confusion — and why cultural messaging makes it even harder for men to come forward and get help.

✅ Why the "why did God allow this?" question is valid — but why getting stuck there blocks the healing that God actually has for you.

✅ What spouses of survivors need to hear: believe them, don't minimize it, don't try to fix it, and let them lead.

✅ Forgiveness as freedom — why it's a process, not a transaction, and why it has nothing to do with making what happened okay.

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QUOTES

❝Most sexual abuse is perpetrated on someone by somebody that the victim knows and probably trusted to some extent.

❝God didn't design abuse. But sometimes people use the freedom God gives us to do horrible things.

❝When you look at what Jesus did — how he was betrayed and stripped and violated — he's not a distant God that doesn't understand.

❝When we bring things into the light, the shame that goes along with that loses its power.

❝When you forgive, you set a prisoner free — and then you realize it was you.

❝Letting go doesn't mean what that person did was okay at all. It gives you the freedom you deserve.

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RESOURCES

➡️ Awesome Marriage — courses, social media, podcast, and more: awesomemarriage.com

➡️ The Awesome Marriage Podcast

➡️ Marriage Undefiled Course (featuring Restored Ministries) at restoredministries.ca/marriageundefiled

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TAKE ACTION

If you're struggling with sexual sin, pornography, or betrayal and want help, you can experience transformational community and Biblical teaching that has impacted the lives of men around the world. Join The Armory at restoredministries.ca/armory.

If you're a man who's tired of secrets, this episode for you.

Kirk Oliver is living proof that God has freedom and purpose planned for even those stuck in sexual immorality.

Kirk is the author of Tip of the Spear, a 30-day men's devotional for discipleship and he shares about his double-life, the miracles that God pulled off to restore his marriage, and the workaholism that he and so many men give into.

YOU'LL LEARN

✅ Why discovering pornography as a boy rewired Kirk's brain — and how the need for affirmation drove decades of hidden sin.

✅ What happened when Kirk's wife came downstairs at midnight and asked the question he'd been dreading.

✅ Why his first Christian counselor didn't work — and how he finally broke free.

✅ How a random Sunday at a new church changed Kirk's life forever.

✅ What Biblical accountability really is

QUOTES

"Convenience and sacrifice are opposites."

"Sacrifice is an act of worship."

"If you're full spiritually and emotionally, you're not easily tempted."

"I used to think, what's the least I could do to be free? That's just not God's economy."

GET THE BOOK

Search "Tip of the Spear by Kirk Oliver" on Amazon to get your 30-day discipleship plan for men.

TAKE ACTION

If you're struggling with sexual sin and want help, join The Armory — a transformational men's discipleship community rooted in Biblical teaching. restoredministries.ca/armory

Bonnie Pue of The Union Movement has written the book parents didn't know they were waiting for — a practical, biblical, and deeply honest guide to talking with your kids about sexuality before the world does it for you. Bonnie and her husband Bryan, parents of six boys, bring theology, storytelling, and a lot of lived experience to one of the most avoided conversations in Christian homes today.

HIGHLIGHTS

✅ Why talking to your kids about sexuality isn't one big conversation — it's a series of small, age-appropriate moments you capitalize on as they come.

✅ How the enemy specifically targets sexuality because it bears the image of God — and why parents need to move from defense to offense.

✅ The real reason parents stay silent: not because they lack love, but because nobody had the conversation with them either.

✅ Practical tools for starting the talk — including a dinner table game that had six boys squirming and laughing at the same time.

✅ Why fear makes parents either helicopter or disengage — and how to find the confident middle ground.

QUOTES

❝If it's always tomorrow, it's never going to happen.❞

❝I don't just want this to be an information transfer — I want people to connect with God himself and invite the Holy Spirit into this journey.❞

❝The voice of the parent needs to be the strongest voice on this topic, through attachment and relational development with their son or daughter.❞

RESOURCES

➡️ Awkward by Bonnie Pue — available on Amazon, Barnes & Noble, Audible, Kobo, and Google Play. Search "Awkward Bonnie Pue"

➡️ The Union Movement — resources, events, and more: unionmovement.com

TAKE ACTION

If you're struggling with sexual sin and want help, you can experience transformational community and Biblical teaching that has impacted the lives of men around the world. Join The Armory at restoredministries.ca/armory.

Bryan and Bonnie Pue of The Union Movement have spent years equipping the church to talk honestly about sexuality. Not as a side topic, but as a core pillar of discipleship. Bryan and Bonnie bring an incredible depth to their understanding of Biblical sexuality and a conviction that we can find the gospel in the midst of our sexuality.

HIGHLIGHTS

✅ Why sexuality cannot be separated from discipleship — and why 25 out of 27 New Testament books address it directly.

✅ The Old Testament sexual framework God established from the very beginning

✅ What the laws in Leviticus and Numbers show about a God who is radically different from every false god demanding sexual worship.

✅ How the slow erosion of sexual identity is a strategic scheme to destroy the image of God in humanity.

✅ The freedom available in 1 Corinthians 6: "Such were some of you" — washed, sanctified, justified. You are not bound to your past or your struggle.

QUOTES

❝If you're not purposely and strategically leading with sexuality, there's a huge deficit within your church culture.❞

❝God is so pro-sex, but He also understands the danger when it's taken outside the context he designed it for.❞

❝Christ's cleanness, his purity was so strong, it actually healed her. That's what happens when you come close to Christ.❞

❝Within this message is a revival message because if we don't get to the root of some of this stuff, revival cannot be sustained.❞

RESOURCES

➡️ The Union Movement — video courses, blogs, podcast, and church leadership resources: theunionmovement.com

➡️ Follow them on Instagram: @theunionmovement

TAKE ACTION

If you're struggling with sexual sin and want help, you can experience transformational community and Biblical teaching that has impacted the lives of men around the world. Join The Armory at restoredministries.ca/armory.