Odd idea right? Scared to get better from an illness which keeps me prisoner. It’s the unknown isn’t it, I’ve been ill for so long and I don’t remember what it’s like to be healthy anymore so if I one day was just better what would happen? Would I just be expected to get on as if nothing ever happened? It’s scary to imagine this thing that’s controlled my life just disappearing but at the same time it’s what I want more than anything! I want to get better and be able to be at school like normal and get a job and meet up with friends and even go to the gym. I want it so much and yet it’s still scary! Today I chat all about this and the reality of what it can be like being scared to get better but also wanting it!