4:29 in the morning, singing Frank Ocean into my voice memos for absolutely no reason other than I felt like it.

No life lesson. No breakthrough. Just me, half-awake, emotional, restarting the song, and very committed to the bit.

December 2022. My first “morning meeting” with myself, and apparently I came prepared to drag myself with love 😭

I’m talking procrastination, escapism, discipline, feeling stuck, not feeling like the woman I know I could be, and finally realizing that the version of me I keep imagining isn’t somewhere far away. She’s already here. I just have to start acting like her.

Poll: Which one is harder for you?
🧠 Knowing what needs to change
🔥 Actually changing it

A voice memo from 24 year old me pretending I’d already made it.

I’m rich, free, traveling the world, retiring my mom, owning property, pouring back into Black and brown communities, and helping people change their lives. Basically, I decided to speak my dream life like it was already happening.

And then, mid-manifestation… “I’m getting booked again, hold on.” lmfaoo

Lmfaooo, have you really lived if you haven't recorded yourself singing?

8/8/22. A Lion’s Gate voice memo where 24 year old me decided I was done being afraid of my own potential. I’m speaking over the woman I wanted to become, the life I wanted to build, the love I wanted to receive, and everything I believed was waiting for me on the other side of fear.

Basically… one very long prayer, manifestation, and love letter to my future self.

A little love manifestation from 24 year old me. Speaking the kind of partnership I wanted into existence, down to the love, respect, protection, devotion, and yes… the tall handsome part too 😭

Little note from 28 year old me: this worked. I’m literally engaged to that man now.

24, considering the Peace Corps, thinking about love, money, purpose, and whether I’m supposed to be building a “real life” yet.

Meanwhile, my soul is basically yelling: girl, go live.

In this first entry, I’m 23, newly living in Seattle, signed with a modeling agency, working in childcare, and sitting by the water trying to remind myself to stop forcing life and actually live it.

A note from me: These are recordings that had been sitting in my Voice Memos. When I recorded them, there was absolutely no intention of ever sharing them with the world. They were for me, and me only.

They’re raw, unedited, and completely unfiltered. I’m sharing them now exactly as they were recorded.

If you listen from Episode 1 onward, you’re not just listening to a podcast. You’re witnessing the real time unfolding of my life, my thoughts, my healing, and my becoming.

New here? Start with Episode 1 and listen in order.

Back to the episode:

Thought I switch it up & do my affirmations from the "why" perspective. I think I heard it was supposed to be more powerful. 10/10

A note from me: These are recordings that had been sitting in my Voice Memos. When I recorded them, there was absolutely no intention of ever sharing them with the world. They were for me, and me only.

They’re raw, unedited, and completely unfiltered. I’m sharing them now exactly as they were recorded.

If you listen from Episode 1 onward, you’re not just listening to a podcast. You’re witnessing the real time unfolding of my life, my thoughts, my healing, and my becoming.

New here? Start with Episode 1 and listen in order.

Back to the episode:

In my affirmations bagggg! Yes it felt cringy, and yes I did it anyway.