In my twenties, I thought I was having the time of my life. I was drunk, driving a beat-up Chevette around Winnipeg, and somehow got caught by the same cop three times in one night. At the time, it became one of my favourite drinking stories. Looking back now, I realize just how easily one of my best nights could have become one of the worst nights of my life.

We all know them. The Tough Guy, the know-it-all, the guy who won't shut up, and the one who thinks every waitress is hitting on him. Spend enough time around binge drinkers and you'll meet them all. In this episode, we're having a good laugh at the ridiculous characters who come out during a binge. You might even recognize a few of your drinking buddies.

How bad can a hangover really get? From dry mouth to Calling in Dead, I break down my five levels of Hangover Hell—and some of the ridiculous shit that happened along the way.

My second Journey out became Crash and Burn Part Two — and this one was fucking brutal.

I went looking for fun, freedom and escape. I ended up wasted, broke and questioning everything I was trying to rebuild.

But something had changed.

The escape had stopped working.

I survived a horrific car accident, a brain bleed, intensive care, six surgeries and five years of recovery.

I was given my life back.

But when life finally started feeling normal again, so did the old patterns.

This is the story of how powerful those patterns can be when you don't even know they're there.

I gave a 90-minute keynote speech about overcoming cocaine, got a standing ovation… and then went on a major drinking binge.

This is the story of one of the greatest achievements of my life, what happened when the applause stopped, and the destructive pattern I couldn't see at the time.

Have you ever wondered if the people who love you think they failed you?

Binge drinking doesn’t just fuck with us. Over time, it can damage trust, hurt the people closest to us and leave everybody wondering what the hell is really going on.

For me, binge drinking wasn’t the whole problem. It was a symptom of something deeper—depression, anxiety and a need to escape how I felt.

In this episode, I talk about broken promises, lost credibility, and what happens when you really are changing—but nobody believes you because they’ve heard it all before.

Maybe instead of asking “What the fuck is wrong with me?”, we should be asking:

“Why the fuck am I hurting?”

Binge Drinking Autopilot Almost Killed Me That Night

I woke up fully dressed, my front door wide open, and no memory of how I got home.

The day had started with a simple idea: a few beers, some sunshine and a little freedom.

It ended with me blackout drunk, broke and lying on a bar floor.

How the fuck did I get there?

This is what happens when an old program takes over. And this is what I understand about autopilot now that I didn't understand then.

If you've ever scared yourself with who you became during a binge, listen to this one.

YOU AREN’T YOU

Do you ever feel more like yourself after a few beers than you do sober?

You spend years becoming the man you're supposed to be—doing what's expected, keeping your shit together and playing the part.

Then you drink. The guard comes down. You stop caring what everybody thinks. Until a few beers become another binge.

What if understanding the person you've been trying to be could help you understand the binge?

If you've ever wondered how much of the person you've become is actually you, listen to this one.

Follow The Last Drinking Binge on Spotify and join me for the rebuild.

Years ago, I decided I was going to change everything at once.

Stop binge drinking. Get healthy. Fix my finances. Get serious about my career.

And for six months, I did it.

The problem? I was fucking miserable.

Eventually I said “fuck it” and went right back to the same old patterns.

In this episode, I talk about what I got wrong about willpower and self-discipline, why changing everything at once didn't work for me, and what I'm doing differently this time.

You don't escape an old pattern. You replace it.