What I hate is how I can be a hypocrite. I will say in this episode one thing to my wife and kids another thing. Jesus does not like hypocrites and I don't feel good when I take out my frustrations on my family. 

I find myself displacing my frustrations with work and other stressors onto my wife and kids. I have been extremely tired of doing this. My family is being misled by me when I get stuck in this cycle. 

The reason I mention this is because I do not want to be a light that fails from my family's point of view. I really need to work on loving my wife and kids every day. This is a front where I need reinforcements to win the battle. 

So remember, just as lights in our life can fail, we can fail others and fade out of their trusted circle. The battle to say engaged with the family is one where the enemy is relentless so I must also be unfailing in this area.