Return conversation with Heather Tracy.

Part 1: A War in the Cells (0 - 26 mins) . On personal evolution, the reality of organized trauma, from history to personal history, from unconscious to conscious, the quest for enlightenment, a healing arc, faith, the world as distortion, cradled horror, the devil as God’s helper, being OK with the horror, the opiate of the masses, the stance of hip, the bottom of the pit, what’s beyond the pit, physical anguish, an imaginal writhing, coagulated despair, the body’s gift, avatars for the body & the intellect, Christ & Lucifer, a binary system, a war in the cells.

Part 2: The Root of the Conspiracy (26 - 54 mins). What was done to us as children, between macro & micro, the root of conspiracy, conscious motives, unconscious drives, and results, closing the book on Leonard Cohen, poison in the water, negative adaptation, adding layers, projecting an image, growing sated on culture, experiences of goodness, hope for salvation, human intervention as conduit to the divine, the pull of organized worship, a distorted lens, a certain type of surrender, a well-defined wound, traumatization & programming, when the sharks show up, Hollywood intel., Dave McGowan, Sophia & the Archons, the urge to scapegoat, rejecting the world within, flying monkey attack, the power of paranoid delusions.

Part 3: An Iceberg of Trauma (54 - 1:23 mins). Seeing persecution as validation, punishing vulnerability, healthy doubts, the pressure of growth, the position of Archon, benevolent malevolence, the impossibility of harming, law of the jungle in society, awareness of one soul, cruelty on the internet, the delicacy of interconnectivity, an iceberg of trauma, required triggering, the nigh-impossibility of trust, listening to the body, turning down the distortion, where is the mind, neuro-feedback, pre-natal peace, absence of fear,

Part Four: An Experience of the Transmission (1:23 - 1:52 mins). Dave Oshana's womb meet, paradise lost, before the mind, an abandoned body, enjoying the body, the healing power of affinity and respect, the pain of experiencing love, a yes in the cells, an experience of the transmission, a foreign vitality, Dave’s face, staying eight forever, the price of coolness, the mind’s configuration against the love, a floating sense of delight, the unconditional condition of love, a tangled web of not-love, the fascination of the labyrinth, left-brain dissociation, the mind as DID, the portion of awareness that is safe, the Dave event, trust and the need for an intervention, other beings, endlessly seeking the good, a terrifying conundrum, freedom from mind

Part Five: A Thief in the Night (1:52 - end).  A preference for nonhuman entities, turning to one another, one big avoidance project, from John de Ruiter to Dave Oshana, seeing humanness, a thief in the night, ordinary trustworthiness, unlovable examples of enlightenment, enlightened psychopaths, a reptilian state, icy transcendence, how do you know the Antichrist, the spiritual version of Clint Eastwood, the difference between power and freedom, the ultimate psychological risk management system, multitasking trauma, true power as radical vulnerability, the smart move, cognitive dishevelment, reality checking. 

Heather’s site: https://thicketworks.com/

Songs: “Knob Wobbler,” by Gib Strange; “Gotta Get Right” by Eilen Jewell; "Answer Me" by The Apartment; "Between My Ears" by Little Teeth;  “If You Are Hell Girl” by The UpsideDown; “These Words Are Yours,” by