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Some stories need telling again 🥀

In this episode, I sit down with my friend Cassie to retell my story not for sympathy, but for truth. One year on, with the court case behind me and my nervous system finally out of survival mode, I’m able to speak about what really happened in a way I couldn’t before.

This is not a neatly packaged survivor story. It’s an honest, sometimes uncomfortable look at how abuse really unfolds slowly, quietly, and often disguised as love. We talk about how red flags don’t arrive all at once, how control creeps in disguised as care, and how trauma bonding can make even the most intelligent, strong women stay in situations that are destroying them.

I share what it was like living inside a relationship that felt safe one minute and terrifying the next, how my identity slowly disappeared, and why leaving didn’t instantly bring peace it brought grief, fear, withdrawal, and the hardest healing of my life.

This episode is also about what happens after you leave. The confusion. The shame. The urge to go back. The rebuilding. And the moment you finally realise that what you called love was actually survival.

House of H.E.R. was born from this journey not just to tell my story, but to give other women the language, understanding, and community I desperately needed. If you’ve ever felt stuck, numb, anxious, or ashamed for loving someone who hurt you, this episode is for you.

You are not weak.
 You are not broken.
 You were surviving.

What we cover

• How abuse really begins
 • Red flags you don’t see at first
 • Trauma bonding and why people go back
 • Why leaving isn’t the end it’s the start
 • Healing after the court case
 • Why House of H.E.R. was created
 • Rebuilding your identity after abuse

Trigger Warning

This episode contains discussion of domestic abuse, coercive control, physical violence, trauma bonding, suicide, and mental health.

If you need support

If you’re struggling right now or something in this episode has brought things up for you, you are not alone and help is available.

UK

Samaritans
Call 116 123 (free, 24/7)
https://www.samaritans.org

National Domestic Abuse Helpline (Refuge)
Call 0808 2000 247
https://www.nationaldahelpline.org.uk

Women’s Aid
https://www.womensaid.org.uk

The Survivors’ Handbook (Women’s Aid)
If you’re not sure if your relationship is healthy, worried about someone else, or need guidance:
https://www.womensaid.org.uk/information-support/the-survivors-handbook/

Clare’s Law
Apply to find out if a current or ex-partner has a history of abuse and may pose a risk:

House of H.E.R. is a space for women who have lived through abuse, trauma, and relationships that broke them. This podcast exists to tell the truth, raise awareness around domestic abuse, and remind you that you are not alone in what you’re healing from.

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