In this deeply personal episode, Josh unpacks the layers of a life lived in hiding. From his early years of seeking acceptance in the church to suppressing his identity to avoid losing the only community he had, this episode tells the story of a mask worn for survival—and what it took to finally take it off.

Joshie shares how being “found out” led to therapy, how church leadership tried to redirect him to an anti-gay retreat, and the unforgettable night he came out to his girlfriend in the pouring rain. He opens up about the fallout from ministry, the emotional toll of shame, and the grace-filled moment when he came out to his mom while recovering from surgery.

Also in this episode: Jurassic World fangirling, summer surgery recovery, and a quick drag of app-based dating.

Takeaways:

Wearing a mask to belong will eventually cost you your joy.

Love doesn’t begin when you’re perfect—it begins when you’re real.

Your story is sacred, even if it’s messy.