The Messy Middle

"Giving is probably the most selfish thing you can do." Victoria Shahbaz means it as the highest compliment, because of how much giving teaches you about yourself. She's built a career turning good intentions into something real, working alongside athletes like Bam Adebayo, Mookie Betts, and Julio Rodríguez, and she's blunt about the difference between a photo op and lasting change. Feeding five thousand people in a day is great, she says, but it isn't real impact, because what do they eat tomorrow?

Victoria and Wael get into rewriting who gets to give back, why the "avatar" of who needs help is usually wrong, and the mother and four siblings who taught her to show up. She shares the story that still grounds her, a graduating class offered anything who asked for mattresses, and why she now treats compassion, not a dollar amount, as the real currency. Then the build: On Deck, and Joy Dealer, the app turning service into a habit you share with your community.

In this episode: 

• Why giving is "the most selfish thing you can do"

• Rewriting who gets to give back 

• Philanthropy is cool, but compassion is cooler 

• Why feeding 5,000 people in a day isn't real impact 

• Working with Bam Adebayo, Mookie Betts, and Julio Rodríguez 

• The mattresses: the story that changed her 

• Building Joy Dealer, and turning service into culture

Chapters: 

00:00 Intro 

02:02 How they connected 

04:07 Rewriting who gets to give back 

05:28 The wrong "avatar" of who needs help 

06:34 Is joy learned? Joy as identity 

09:11 Where her compassion comes from: mom and five siblings 

13:37 Political science, and becoming the first to graduate 

15:56 Working with Bam Adebayo since his rookie year 

17:31 How On Deck was born 

24:29 What athletes are really missing 

28:20 Philanthropy is cool, compassion is cooler 

36:36 "Giving is the most selfish thing you can do" 

40:55 The mattresses: the story that changed her 

50:08 Mookie Betts, Julio Rodríguez, and the "it factor" 

1:01:46 Building Joy Dealer: gamifying service 

1:12:40 The impact she wants to leave 

1:16:08 The question we're not asking: "what's on your heart?"

She closes on the question she thinks we've stopped asking each other: not "what's wrong," but "what's on your heart?" And a second one worth sitting with: why'd you take that personal? Because everything is.

The Messy Middle is a cinematic interview series hosted by filmmaker and creative director Wael Abou-Zaki. It sits with entrepreneurs, artists, and builders to uncover the truth about growth: the process, the pivots, the doubts, and the breakthroughs between chaos and clarity. New episodes the first Monday of every month.

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Johnny Dantonio has built a career at the intersection of creativity, culture, and instinct. As VP of Creative at Fanatics, he's shaped global campaigns across the Super Bowl, the Olympics, and the World Cup, including the Kendall Jenner "bet on the right guy" spot. He once sat across a table from Kobe Bryant and told him, to his face, that his idea was bad. And through all of it, he's held onto a belief most people in his industry would resist: advertising isn't art, and staying humble about that is exactly what keeps the work honest.

This conversation isn't really about advertising. It's about staying true to who you are while building at the highest level, and keeping perspective when the work wants to become your whole identity.

Johnny and Wael get into where taste actually comes from, the portfolio school that gave him "an unshakeable faith in his voice," why your early work is supposed to be bad, how he hires for attitude over everything, and how getting a bold idea through a company really works. Then the human turn: the Kobe Bryant story behind "Dear Basketball," why he thinks advertising isn't art, and how becoming a father reframed what work is even for.

In this episode:

• Building creative in-house: "magic and machine"
• Where taste comes from, and why emotion is the whole game
• "If it moves you, it's probably worth it"
• Why your early work is supposed to suck
• Hiring for attitude, and why you should hire people who do what you can't
• The Kendall Jenner Super Bowl campaign, from 35 scripts to one
• The Kobe Bryant stare-down and the story behind "Dear Basketball"
• Why advertising isn't art, and how that keeps him grounded
• Gratitude, fatherhood, and work that isn't your identity

Chapters:

00:00 Intro

01:28 Old friends: how Johnny and Wael met

03:33 Magic and machine: building creative in-house at Fanatics

07:42 What a VP of Creative actually does

09:44 Where taste comes from

13:26 "If it moves you, it's worth it": trusting your instinct

19:50 The portfolio school that changed everything

26:36 Speed, quality, and why your early work is supposed to suck

30:29 Handling KPIs, wins, and losses

36:10 Building a team: attitude over everything

39:08 Getting a bold idea through: the Kendall Jenner Super Bowl ad

47:20 Avoiding burnout: New York, and leaving the brain alone

50:44 Advertising isn't art (and why that keeps him grounded)

54:59 The Kobe Bryant stare-down

1:01:22 Gratitude, fatherhood, and why family reframed the work

1:07:29 The biggest lesson about creativity

1:11:52 The one question we're not asking ourselves

He closes on the question he thinks we all avoid: am I doing enough for the people who deserve all of my effort? The ones who opened doors, who built the life you're living. Call your grandmother. Share the wins and the losses with the people who helped make them possible.

The Messy Middle is a cinematic interview series hosted by filmmaker and creative director Wael Abou-Zaki. It sits with entrepreneurs, artists, and builders to uncover the truth about growth: the process, the pivots, the doubts, and the breakthroughs between chaos and clarity. New episodes the first Monday of every month.

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The night someone wired his company sixty four million dollars, David Metz's first thought wasn't victory. It was, who am I to deserve this?

David is the founder and CEO of Prizeout, a fintech company that partners with credit unions to put rewards and cash back into the pockets of middle America. But he didn't set out to build a fintech. He was running a real-money trivia app, FleetWit, when he noticed customers cashing out their winnings to gift cards for brands they'd never used. One cold call to Papa John's later, he walked into his board and said, "Don't kill me. We're going from trivia to fintech."

This conversation isn't really about a startup.

It's about what it takes to build something durable without losing yourself in the process.

David and Wael get into resilience, leadership, and the parts of the founder journey nobody romanticizes. Why being a CEO is service, not power. Why he raises money from entrepreneurs instead of VCs. How he keeps his kids close to adversity while living in a city that makes comfort easy. And why, after everything, he believes the real secret is gratitude.

In this episode:• Turning a trivia app into a $64M fintech, almost by accident• Why a CEO's real job is service, not power• Raising from founders instead of VCs, and the mentors who "have been there"• Credit unions, middle America, and building something that helps• Pivoting without ego, and why "we suffer more in imagination than in reality"• Building culture by example, and why the founder eats last• Raising resilient kids, and the gratitude that outlasts any number

Chapters:00:00 The intro00:35 Old friends: how David and Wael met02:39 Recreating the team: from D1 sports to startups05:29 Born or made? Entrepreneur parents and ADHD as a superpower07:07 What success actually looks like now10:00 Why he raises from founders, not VCs12:30 FleetWit and the accidental pivot to fintech15:44 Keeping the whole cap table whole16:37 Credit unions and helping middle America19:43 Changing direction without ego22:33 Get rich slowly (Buffett and Bezos)27:29 Why being a CEO is service, not power29:18 Hiring people who complete you32:18 Breaking points, armor, and "the worst thing is fine"38:14 Raising kids who know adversity46:49 Building culture, and why you eat last51:21 What success doesn't fix: gratitude55:11 The question we're not asking: nobody knows when

He closes on a line from Marcus Aurelius. Nobody knows when. So did you seize today, did you tell the people you love that you love them, did you give it everything you had? Because the number was never the point. The way you build, and who you become doing it, is.

The Messy Middle is a cinematic interview series hosted by filmmaker and creative director Wael Abou-Zaki. It sits with entrepreneurs, artists, and builders to uncover the truth about growth: the process, the pivots, the doubts, and the breakthroughs between chaos and clarity. New episodes the first Monday of every month.

Listen to the full series: https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PLmsSIvOwknmLCq4k56pIqAxrkoz1JOCLG

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Shadeh Smith spent more than fifteen years building culture for some of the biggest names in music. From Kehlani and Burna Boy to Ed Sheeran, and more recently the new world of streamers like IShowSpeed and Kai Cenat. She came up the hard way, from picking up laundry and driving artists to becoming a music commissioner and creative director at Atlantic Records. Then she walked away from the machine to build her own studio, evrdydrmr, and a nonprofit, She Made It, that opens doors for filmmakers who rarely get into the room.This conversation isn't really about a music career.It's about what it costs to tie your identity to a company, and what it takes to come back to yourself.Shadeh and Wael get into the parts most people leave out. The burnout and code-switching that came with the job. The void that opens when the title disappears. The healing work she inherited from her father. And the quiet decision to build in a way that lets her life breathe.In this episode:• Building with purpose instead of grinding yourself down• Leaving a major label to bet on herself• What a music commissioner actually does, and the relationships that hold it together• Burnout, identity, and losing yourself inside a role• Reiki, craniosacral healing, and where her spirituality comes from• Grief, peace, and the questions she can't put down• She Made It, and why access is the whole game for underrepresented filmmakersChapters:00:00 The interview begins02:40 What she's building now: purpose over the grind07:45 Leaving the label to build evrdydrmr12:50 "I was a bit of a bulldog": relearning how she works17:15 Brazil, a politics degree, and the dream of changing the world23:50 Breaking into music: from laundry runs to Atlantic Records33:40 Burnout, code-switching, and losing her identity45:55 The moment evrdydrmr was born49:10 Building worlds for NBA YoungBoy, IShowSpeed, and Kai Cenat1:05:50 Healing, reiki, and her father the healer1:12:00 Loss, death, and the questions she can't put down1:17:30 Peace vs. happiness1:23:00 She Made It: opening the door for underrepresented filmmakers1:42:45 The one question we're not asking ourselvesLate in the conversation she lands on the question she thinks most of us avoid. Not what do you want, but "Am I doing this the way I actually want to?" Get clear on the way, she says, and the rest starts to follow.The Messy Middle is a cinematic interview series hosted by filmmaker and creative director Wael Abou-Zaki. It sits with entrepreneurs, artists, and builders to uncover the truth about growth: the process, the pivots, the doubts, and the breakthroughs between chaos and clarity. New episodes the first Monday of every month.evrdydrmr: https://everydaydreamer.co/She Made It: https://www.shemadeit.space/Listen to the full series: https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PLmsSIvOwknmLCq4k56pIqAxrkoz1JOCLG#ShadehSmith #TheMessyMiddle #evrdydrmr #SheMadeIt #Kehlani #BurnaBoy #IShowSpeed #MusicIndustry #Filmmaking #CreativeDirector #ArtistDevelopment #CreatorEconomy

Before he was producing films. Before television. Before building entertainment companies.Julian Boothe was a young immigrant from Jamaica trying to find his place in the music business.Along the way he worked alongside Uncle Luke, discovered Pitbull before the world knew his name, helped develop artists including Rick Ross, Trina, Trick Daddy and Plies, played a key role in launching Love & Hip Hop Miami, built viral content businesses, and eventually transitioned into film and television production.But this conversation isn't really about music. It's about reinvention. In this episode of The Messy Middle, Julian shares what he learned from mentorship, entrepreneurship, artist development, reality television, filmmaking, and betting on himself long before anyone else would.We discuss:• Discovering Pitbull and signing him to his first deal• Lessons learned from Uncle Luke and Miami's music scene• Working with artists like Rick Ross, Trina, Trick Daddy and Plies• The real role of A&R and talent development• Why passion matters more than money early in your career• Building businesses through multiple industry shifts• The rise of Love & Hip Hop Miami• Transitioning from music to television and film• The importance of mentorship and collaboration• Why creators need spaces to discover their voice• Taking risks before you feel ready• Building an entertainment ecosystem for the next generationOne of the most powerful ideas Julian shares is simple: Don't wait for permission. Build the thing, learn the skill and take the risk.And keep reinventing yourself until you become the person capable of creating the future you envision.CHAPTERS00:00 Introduction01:31 What Julian Is Building Today03:46 The Mentor Who Changed Everything06:39 Passion Over Money07:45 Growing Up Jamaican & Entrepreneurial10:42 Discovering Pitbull14:45 Watching Pitbull Become a Global Star17:25 Working With Rick Ross, Trina, Trick Daddy & Plies22:14 What A&R Really Does26:36 Knowing You Found Your Calling30:06 Reinventing Yourself Across Industries34:27 The Truth About Love & Hip Hop36:45 How Love & Hip Hop Miami Started39:49 Becoming Part of the Show44:46 Rebuilding After Public Criticism47:00 Transitioning Into Film50:14 The Economics of Independent Filmmaking54:55 Why Julian Believes He Can't Lose57:02 Building Movies From the Ground Up01:00:00 Legacy, Creators & What's Next🎙️ The Messy Middle explores identity, growth, leadership, entrepreneurship, creativity, and the realities behind success.Now streaming on YouTube, Spotify and Apple Podcasts.#TheMessyMiddle #JulianBoothe #Pitbull #LoveAndHipHopMiami #Entrepreneurship #Filmmaking #MusicIndustry #CreatorEconomy #Leadership

Michael Vick has been one of the most discussed athletes of our lifetime, but “hearing the story” isn’t the same as knowing the person.

In this episode of The Messy Middle, we sit down for a real conversation about identity, leadership, trust, and legacy, and what it actually takes to control your head space when the world is loud.

We talk about why people say “we’ve heard Mike’s story,” how assumptions get made, and why that mindset shows up everywhere in business, in relationships, and in the way we judge each other. Mike speaks on work ethic, fear of failure, humility, leadership in the purest form, and what it means to build standards for everyone around you.

This is not a football story. It’s a human story about what it costs to become the man your community needed when you were a kid.

If this conversation hits you, subscribe and drop a comment: What’s one truth you’re learning to live by right now?

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Chapters:

00:00 Intro + why we made The Messy Middle

00:43 Relationship, identity, and why this conversation matters

01:41 “Not a football story, a human story”

02:41 What Mike is building right now: work ethic and consistency

05:06 Humility, greatness, and discipline

06:44 Mentors and the “complex” path to success

07:03 Who is Michael Vick to others and to himself

09:06 Legacy, standards, and “leading in the purest form”

10:27 Fear of failure and managing pressure

12:45 Failure, growth, and learning the hard way

14:54 Coaching men: the conversations he doesn’t want to have

23:19 The part of leadership he regrets 

24:51 Controlling your head space + “over-saturated” + assumptions

27:00 Truth, listening, and staying grounded

29:10 Trust, betrayal, and giving the benefit of the doubt

31:12 A deep truth: selfishness, humility, and resetting standards

35:28 Legacy: what’s locked vs. what still needs earning

40:38 Commitment, accountability, and what coaching really means

41:33 What it takes to truly know a person

45:00 “Great listener, great vision” 

46:21 If Mike wasn’t a football player… 

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“To be wealthy in America, you have to own something.”That is the foundation of this conversation with Ricardo Frazer. From Costa Rica to New York to the Pacific Northwest, Ricardo’s journey spans decades in music, business, and mentorship. But his impact goes far beyond the industry.This episode is about:• Why ownership is the foundation of wealth• Understanding contracts and reading every word• The difference between art and the business of art• Helping creators survive, not struggle• Why loyalty and trust matter more than paperwork• Being willing to walk away from the wrong deal• The balance between ego and purpose• Building legacy for the next generationRicardo helped shape careers, protect intellectual property, and guide artists toward long-term success. But at the core, this is not just a business conversation. It is about consciousness, integrity, and how you choose to move through life.🎬 Episode 8 of The Messy Middle is live now on Youtube, Spotify and Apple Podcasts. #themessymiddle #zakirose #mixalot #ownership #music #consciousness CHAPTERS:00:00 – Ownership Is Everything00:45 – Who Is Ricardo Frazer02:00 – Mission in This Phase of Life04:10 – Building Legacy for the Next Generation05:50 – Growing Up in Costa Rica07:30 – Moving to New York and Finding Identity09:00 – Choosing Washington and Following Intuition10:45 – Passion for Music and Business13:00 – Understanding the Economics of Music15:00 – Helping Artists Survive and Thrive17:10 – The Business of Music Explained19:20 – Owning Your Masters and Publishing22:00 – Reading Contracts and Knowing the Details23:05 – Why Ownership Creates Wealth24:30 – Turning Down Short-Term Money25:00 – Loyalty and Long-Term Relationships27:00 – Trust Over Contracts29:00 – Negotiation as an Art31:00 – Knowing When to Walk Away33:30 – Standing on Principle35:30 – The Reality of the Music Business36:00 – Why Ownership Protects the Future38:00 – Creating Space and Making Better Decisions40:00 – Self-Awareness and Inner Work41:00 – Growth, Family, and Spiritual Connection

What is punishment?Is it retribution?Is it rehabilitation?Is it accountability?Or is it something deeper?In this episode of The Messy Middle, we sit inside a courtroom in Henrico County with Judge Nael Abouzaki, one of the youngest judges in Virginia.But this is not a story about power. It is about humility. Nael came to America from a small village in Lebanon at seven years old. He once sat in this same courthouse as a juvenile defendant. Today, he presides from the bench.We talk about:• Growing up as an immigrant trying to find identity• Being a defendant before becoming a judge• Prosecuting violent cases and seeing two victims in every courtroom• Why a 30 second decision can cost 48 years• Judging emotions, not just actions• Ordering defendants to look in the mirror and confront who they are• Why guidance changes everything• What justice actually meansThis conversation is not about headlines. It is about ripple effects. About children. About families. About what happens after the case closes.Justice is not just a verdict. It is a responsibility.🎬 Episode 7 of The Messy Middle is live now on Youtube, Spotify and Apple Podcasts.

00:00 – What Is Punishment

01:20 – Why Justice Is More Than a Verdict

03:00 – What It Means to Judge With Humility

05:30 – Becoming One of Virginia’s Youngest Judges

06:45 – Immigrating From Lebanon at Seven

08:15 – No Flying Cars. The Real American Dream

10:45 – Being the Underdog and Finding Identity

11:50 – Sitting in This Court as a Juvenile Defendant

14:30 – From Prosecutor to Judge

15:20 – Giving a Voice to the Underdog

17:30 – Seeing Two Victims in Every Case

19:00 – The Story of V

23:00 – A Text That Changed Everything

26:30 – Why Money Is Not the Metric

27:00 – A 48 Year Sentence for 30 Seconds

30:30 – The Unexpected Call to Become a Judge

34:30 – How Judges Are Selected in Virginia

39:00 – The Weight of “All Rise”

41:30 – 99.9 Percent the Same

42:30 – Why Guidance Changes Lives

46:00 – Judging Emotions

48:45 – Look in the Mirror

[Final Segment] – What Question Are We Not Asking Ourselves Enough

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Bill McCullough has worn every hat: HBO Sports, GoPro, NFL Media, FaZe Clan, XFL. Eleven Sports Emmys and a career defined by adapting, building teams, and owning the work. In this episode we go inside the engine under the titles: how to protect taste at scale, when metrics sharpen instinct, and why rejection is fuel.In this conversation:- From premium docs to creator worlds- Building the NFL content machine- What metrics actually matter- IP and ownership in 2026- The cost of chasing the next chapterChapters00:00 Cold open01:05 Why start again after success08:40 HBO to GoPro to NFL18:30 Building a content engine28:10 Metrics that sharpen instinct39:55 Creator economy and FaZe52:20 XFL lessons1:04:10 Ownership and IP1:12:00 Meaning, legacy, what success did not fixSubscribe for new episodes of The Messy Middle. Drops the first Monday of each Month on Youtube, Spotify and Apple Podcasts.#themessymiddle #BillMcCullough #Filmmaking #NFL #HBO #FaZe #dudeperfect #ContentStrategy #CreatorEconomy #OwnYourIP

Dr. Jim Olson is a pediatric neuro-oncologist who has spent his life working where science, grief, and hope collide.In this episode of The Messy Middle, we sit down with Dr. Olson in Seattle to trace the path from his childhood in Upper Michigan to the operating rooms where tumors now light up in real time. His work led to Tumor Paint, a breakthrough imaging agent derived from scorpion venom that helps surgeons see cancer cells while sparing healthy brain tissue.But this conversation goes far beyond a single discovery.Wael and Dr. Jim Olson have known each other for more than a decade. Over that time, they’ve crossed paths through science, creativity, and shared purpose. But this was the first time they were able to sit down without an agenda and really talk about life.Dr. Olson shares how loss shaped his purpose, why he chose pediatric oncology despite the emotional cost, and how he built companies, labs, and communities to push ideas across the gap between research and real-world impact. We explore Presage Biosciences and the CIVO platform, a way to test drugs directly inside living tumors, and Project Violet, a community-funded initiative born from a child’s final wish to help others.This episode is about choosing impact over credit, building teams instead of empires, and staying human in work where the stakes are life and death.This is not just science.It is responsibility.It is systems.It is heart.

LINKS TO DONATE HERE:Here is a link to help fund a cure for pediatric brain cancer: https://give.seattlechildrens.org/give/722434/#!/donation/checkout

You can also donate here to William Murtagh (aka "Iron Heart") and for every child and family who has faced the heartbreak of a pediatric brain tumor: https://give.seattlechildrens.org/fundraiser/6868285
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