In this conversation, Bonny traces a life lived at full stretch: from stage designer in Cold War Berlin to web pioneer on the Sunshine Coast; from a rainforest off-grid in the Queensland hinterland, to the 61st floor of a Manhattan skyscraper — and the burnout that finally brought him to his knees.

What emerges is a conversation about identity, stillness, the cost of people-pleasing, and what it actually means to grow up — as a man, a father, a leader.

We talk about:

* The childhood question that shapes who you become — whose love did you crave, and what did you have to do to get it?

* Fast dopamine, the slot machine hidden in your phone, and why sitting under a tree might be the most radical act available to us

* Three and a half years living without walls in a Queensland rainforest — and what nature quietly teaches you

* The startup culture of performing confidence while the kitchen burns

* Depression, burnout, and the fetal position that changed everything

* Why nothing f***s up a startup quicker than running out of happiness

* The one word swap that gives you your life back — replacing “I have to” with “I want to”

* What real vulnerability looks like in leadership

* Becoming best friends with your worst case scenario

* And at 60, being the closest he’s ever been to knowing who he actually is

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