You belong on the glory side, but instead your on the outside begging for someone else to give you a piece of their joy. Stop asking everyone else to give you a piece of joy, you need to get in your place and get your on joy for yourself. God is looking for a vessel to show out and show what he can do through you, but first you need to be in your place. You need to have a made up mind that you are going to be saved. Let God come and manifest in you and show everyone how good God has been in you. It is time to stop being selfish and being angry with everyone else because they have a blessing and you don't. Just say yes to God and give your life to him and you will see how God can turn your life around