Sometimes we think we need to be pure and perfect before we come to God but God will intervene for us even at our worst. All of us have a little of Saul and a little of Paul in us, we have that tension, that push and pull in us. You might feel blind right now but keep following. You don't need to know where God is going in order to follow. 

Are we going to bow to the Lord or are we going to continue to be blind? We need to stop pushing in our flesh and start being pulled by the Spirit.