You suck at piano. It sounds like s**t when you play. I hate listening to it.

You mess up even the most basic things. But, you care more about not messing up than what it sounds like.

You don't care what it sounds like. You don't care about keeping a steady beat.

You care so much about doing it right that you're not willing to leave out notes, to make a decision, to have an opinion.

It's horrible and sounds worse because you care so much about doing it right, being a good student, getting a pat on the head or a gold star.

You don't care about the results of your actions. It's like you're cooking and don't care how it tastes. You say, "I followed the recipe."

"I was only following orders."

It's pathetic. You're self-absorbed and in denial.

You don't care about making it sound good with the pedal. You want to press the pedal down and say, "I pressed the pedal down. I'm doing it right." But, you don't care what it sounds like.

It would be impossible to sing along to your playing.

It’s not music. It's horrible. Do you get it???

Your friends and family are probably telling you it sounds good.

They're lying to you. But, that's OK because you're lying to them. You're telling them you're happy with it.

"I'm doing piano. Everything's great."

You're lying to me and probably lying to yourself. There's an aura of dishonesty around you. It's bad. Your playing is bad. Your character is bad. It's evil.

You're not willing to admit you care. You just want to stick your head in the sand. You're addicted to positivity. You don't care about reality.

You say "I like it this way" when you don't actually like it this way. I don't know how you look in the mirror.

You don't like it but you think you should like it. You say, "I'm just a beginner. This is the most I can expect. This is good for a beginner."

No, it’s not good for anybody (except for maybe a ROCK).

It's total b******t.

I don't know what else to tell you.

—Michael

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