I originally wrote this piece in 2017. It was the first meditation I ever wrote, when I first started thinking about doing type of a podcast. It was very much inspired by Dr. Paul Nguyen's short lived but quite excellent podcast, Mood Streams. I hope wherever you are Dr. Nguyen, that something awesome happens to you today.

The illustration is my friend Chris's dog, Rugger. I believe Chris is a victim of the same cyber stalker that I am a victim of. I miss him (the real Chris, not the person(s) who have been bullying me for over a decade).

I believe the real Chris may have heard this in 2017 or 2018 and reached out to me in a community we were both a part of, before getting scared and ghosting me. Before finding me again in 2020, when I left him because my depression was so debilitating I could barely take care of myself. It is one of my greatest regrets.

I love you Chris, and I miss you. Please call me.