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THERE AREN'T ANY FATHER FIGURES AVAILABLE UNTIL EARLY JANUARY
THERE AREN'T ANY FATHER FIGURES AVAILABLE UNTIL EARLY JANUARY
I fantasized about
you
dying. I did it
without trying;
without crying;
without fighting the
feeling
that the worse it
was for you
the better it would
be for me.
I warned people
about you. Murder-
suicide. Murder then
suicide. We joked about how we would
be murdered-
suicided by you in
our sleep. Barely able to see over
the sink. Another
drink. Violence
in the streets.
Barely able
to defend myself.
Hell,
helpless. Selfless
if you
provoked him. Let
that sink in. You sink
or swim. Deep end.
If someone has to take it,
might as well fight
back. Side step. Side
step. Jab.
It does not hurt as
much as you think, and ice helps
with the welts.
I fantasized about
making it to twenty-five,
alive. Thought I
would die. Murder
or suicide. Murder
or suicide.
To my surprise,
there are no male
therapists available until after the new year.
I should check back
then.
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By Mathew SerbackTHERE AREN'T ANY FATHER FIGURES AVAILABLE UNTIL EARLY JANUARY
I fantasized about
you
dying. I did it
without trying;
without crying;
without fighting the
feeling
that the worse it
was for you
the better it would
be for me.
I warned people
about you. Murder-
suicide. Murder then
suicide. We joked about how we would
be murdered-
suicided by you in
our sleep. Barely able to see over
the sink. Another
drink. Violence
in the streets.
Barely able
to defend myself.
Hell,
helpless. Selfless
if you
provoked him. Let
that sink in. You sink
or swim. Deep end.
If someone has to take it,
might as well fight
back. Side step. Side
step. Jab.
It does not hurt as
much as you think, and ice helps
with the welts.
I fantasized about
making it to twenty-five,
alive. Thought I
would die. Murder
or suicide. Murder
or suicide.
To my surprise,
there are no male
therapists available until after the new year.
I should check back
then.