As a supermodel, everyone knows your name. You’re shooting with the industry leaders, for the real big bucks, hitting the Victoria’s Secret runways and having people beg to take your photo at red carpet events. Your Instagram notifications have to be turned off because you’re hitting high 900k followers and most likely, you will often be seen dancing on yachts with the likes of Justin Bieber.  And then you have me; skirting that fine line between the two, which has been excruciating. Here, I explain why…

The problem, I quickly realized, was that all the cool mags and top designers don’t need to pay for talent. There is no severance pay in modelling; big bucks one minute, no bucks the next! It’s really just about the circle you need to be in to make it in this industry.  That’s what any agent will tell you.  My agent was right. For a brief moment, I became I star. Photographers, designers and stylist started to recognize my face and learned my name. I most certainly wasn’t Kate Moss, but in the industry, I was an ‘it’ girl, the flavor of the month…. That was until, all of a sudden, the next ‘it’ girl came along and I was instantly a second thought to all.