210325. (10:46pm). Day 286 of #AliveWithArt(one of those days)- 1 year of lockdown :(- feeling low, want to get out of my head- exhausted, alone, family with me- directionless - what am i doing?- the things i want to do. i don't know if i can support myself- i want to pursue music, performing but there's also the fear that i have to be more open about the things i've gone through/what inspires me- i don't like being known as that kind of person- most people know me as high energy- so scary because i'd have to bear more of who i am - the good, bad- goal is to make happy songs- process of continuously trying to create- should i start with sadder songs or make new ones- so that i'm not waiting too long for myself- maybe i can trying wrting happy songs for myself so i can pull myself out of a rut- makeup- if i have to drag myself to my dreams it's the weight i'd gladly carry- at the same time, the pursuit of your dreams shouldn't come at the expense of the happiness we enjoy today- be who my old self needed- some days it's gong to be heavy, but we can trust ourselves to keep going at it- i feel like a dark cloud - but some daysoops i wasnt able to finish my notes on this one buuut i'll get around to it again next time!!! :)

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