We pull into the parking lot. My daughter sits beside me, shoving Pringles into her mouth. This is a reconnaissance stop, before our official visit. We park for a moment, hardly breathing as we sit there.A few weeks ago, the headline of the local newspaper read, "Man charged with having 5 illegal guns." The story continued with police seizing said handguns during an investigation of an assault case. The man charged is my brother. I sobbed when I read the article and through the days that followed.