Today I Learned I need to tolerate the dull days. This entire summer I’ve pretty much commited to earning as much money as possible to finance my education. At first I was upset with the sacrifice I had to make. I stopped working on music while during school to ensure I passed all my classes. During the semester I was looking forward to spending the entire summer making songs. But when I realized that the time would be better spent earning money I was very upset. I felt like I was sacrificing too much. I had already went two years without seriously making songs now i could foresee another year of holding out to be more practical. I felt it wasn’t fair. But honestly I’m at the point we’re whatever it takes is whatever I’ll give. I can’t stay another second in my mom’s home. I want to ensure that when I leave I leave permantly. I’ve made the mistake before of leaving home without having a clear cut plan of what I would be doing to make a living in the long term. I left to only come back for another three years. I’ve come to realize that life hasn’t been all that much exciting. The vast majority of my time is spent working. It really irks me. When I was working on music all the time I had no issue with the mundaness of my life at the time because I was having fun and felt like things could turn around. But with school it feels like I’m just gonna burry myself deeper and deeper into a mundane life filled with responsibility and meaning but lacking of zest and intimacy. The thing I’ve come to terms with is that school is temporary and that one day I’ll be back to making music and feel like overnight things could change.