.. ‘You’ is the total field. You and the world is one process.

But I face resistance pain-(any thing you dislike) and uncertainty? How can I be total?

The resistance you feel is also within the totality. Once you absorb the resistance without any explanation-the total field is realized.

You are thinking as if you will come to some clear, definite explanation in respect of ‘what is happening or what you face’. You are carried away by the relief promised by these explanations-including religious-spiritual. Or you simply ignore this question or this question does not arise in you, you remain in your comfort zone.

Unless your relief, your comfort zone is shattered, unless you see that nature of things is such from moment to moment and there is no way to understand by ANY explanation-‘what is True’ is not revealed.