part of transformania which is creating new language for people who experience manic consciousness is just creating new meaning and new memes that can replicate through us if they resonate I'm just having fun playing with words and I don't know if any of it resonates so also with what I was saying about how I feel like I just have to say this stuff and get it out of my system these memes are sort of within me or on bits of paper and I feel like I want to share and this is a form of I'm not sure if it's epi mimetics or endo mimetics but just like there's epigenetics control above the genes there's I feel there's there's mimetics there's memes and we usually recycle memes from our past as well as what we see in the media and learn from other people so it's all sort of passed and old and secondhand and I feel going into the state of media gives us access to new memes we're actually the makers of new memes and doesn't mean they're all correct it just means they're new and we can either spread them or we can talk about them or not talk about them and I feel like in the state of mania we talk about them and we can't not talk about them but we're just sort of bouncing around talking to random people or whatever so they don't necessarily take hold per se and it's not a state where you're talking about the state it's a state where you're just talking about whatever is in the moment so now part of my harvesting process is harvesting the state by sort of unfolding and making context about the state so I have pages of all of the things I wrote down the very first time I was in that state of consciousness and I don't know how much of it is actually coherent they but they might have been some nice thoughts and ideas but what I'm saying is those weren't memes about the state so now i'm creating memes which are a language to understand the state so actually I'm seeing now that I feel like mania is epi mimetics it's memes coming from somewhere else than our own personal pool of memes or the memes that are well-known in society and they're sort of perceptual mimetics and that we perceive something and memes get created within us which we can speak so if i was in manic consciousness i could speak them and blah blah blah they'd sort of spread out a little bit or say i was a manic consciousness i just decided to talk to my cell phone video for 20 hours and then post that now those memes can spread more but if i'm in mad at consciousness not all of it would be coherent per se i might be saying i'm captain of the universe which would be kind of entertaining as well but what I'm saying is I feel like harvesting one's mania after the fact is a form of endo mimetics so it's going back in retrospect and thinking about the EPI mimetic process and creating endo memes related to the EPI memes so I could share epi memes and I can share endo memes which are making meaning out of that meaning making process itself the state itself is very meaningful it's felt as very meaningful and there's no need to make meaning out of that meaningful state it's just living and being alive and celebrating and being playful and that's the meaning itself and so this is sort of making meaning in retrospect witches endo mimetics which is related to the epi mimetics I have an epi meme which is say the one I shared before about we're all killing each other with our thoughts feelings and actions and that's to do with sort of the butterfly effect or the ripple effect how what we do here affects somebody across the world and in sits in subtle ways that we can't necessarily perceive if we can actually perceive it we wouldn't do it but that's what makes it an interesting game is we have no idea what we're doing and what's going to happen we're going to be surprised the moment we find that life isn't going to surprise us anymore we're pretty much in the state of suicide so so I feel that that's the way it is is harvesting one's manias and doma mattox it's making meaning out of the EP