This is the first pilot episode of Music Is My Medicine podcast. Ella is interviewing Tray Avlon - an incredibly talented hip hop artist from East London, whose personal and deep lyrics challenge male stereotypes and inspire open conversation about human emotions. As a child, Tray never heard the words 'I love you' from his own mum, although he saw her parental love expressed in other ways. Later on, Tray decided to explore how his childhood has effected his ability to love as an adult man.

TRAY: I didn't realise that anything was missing until I had my own relationships. Because I had no teacher to teach me how to love, I didn't have a good model how to love anyone else. I thought I understood what I was doing, but I didn't. (...) When I really dug deeper I understood I couldn't have know how to nourish relationships outside myself because of my bad, I guess, relationship with my mum.

FEATURED SONGS: 'From Me To You' - Tray Avlon; 'Opposites Attract' - Tray Avlon; 'You Already Know' - Tray Avlon ft. El'tee.