Deep Biblical insights from a Bible study in 1 Samuel on the principles which were at work between King Saul and David and which are now at work in my own life and battle right now with my ex-wife

Realizing how much longer my waiting on the Lord has been than I expected...three years and counting and still NOTHING has changed

The fear that comes over my mind about missing out on good years with my future wife and the important years of my children's lives

The Lie of "God has not done anything for you...your situation is not changed...forget about the promise and move on."

Trying to capture as many word pictures as I can about what it has been like to walk so long through darkness, knowing these recordings will one day bless others to keep trusting in God through their long periods of waiting in the darkness

Better understanding of what it means to be "More than conquerors" in Christ Romans 8:37

The shocking similarities between Saul's false repentance towards David and my ex-wife's false repentance towards me

God uses the disobedient around us to shape us and conform us more into the image of Christ

Realizing God has blessed me with so much grace that I could even take back my ex-wife who has done so much evil to me, if she truly repented

Like Joseph, until the words of the Lord come true, the word of the Lord is testing me

The paradox of living by Faith being so easy and yet so very hard