Recovery is weird because getting sober was only the beginning. Then came the part where I actually had to meet find again.

In this episode, we are getting into what recovery has really looked like for me: the good, the bad, the ugly, and, of course, the funny. The rebuilding. The uncomfortable realizations. Learning how to exist without constantly trying to escape myself. Figuring out who I am outside of survival mode and slowly finding my way back home to me!

Recovery definitely has not been this linear journey where everything suddenly made sense. It’s been messy, hilarious, painful, freeing, and sometimes deeply uncomfortable. But somewhere in all of that, I started recognizing myself again. Challenging, but beautiful! This is what trying looks like in recovery.

In this episode of Trying in Public, I’m telling the story of my relationship with alcohol. From some of my earliest experiences with drinking, to college, New York, and eventually the moments that forced me to really confront what alcohol had become in my life.

This story happened over the span of about four or five years, and trauma has a funny way of impacting your memory and your sense of time. I tried to tell everything as honestly and accurately as I could. I do have a phenomenal memory unfortunately, so it should be pretty accurate lol.

There are funny parts, embarrassing parts, things I can laugh about now, and things that are still hard to revisit. But more than anything, this is the story of how something that started out feeling normal and fun slowly became something much bigger, and what it has looked like finding my way back to myself on the other side of it.

I’m not telling this story because I have everything figured out. I’m telling it because this is Trying in Public, and healing counts too.

Be kind to me! I’m just a (healing) gurl 🤎

Love y’all xoxoxo

Welcome to Trying in Public! In the very first episode, I’m getting into the story behind this podcast, what brought me here, and the very real process of trying to figure my life out while everyone is looking. We’re talking big dreams, questionable decisions, starting over, and what happens when the life you thought you were building doesn’t quite go according to plan.

In here, there are perfect answers. No five-year plan chile! Just me, figuring it out in real time. Welcome to the beginning!