Anytime you’re trying, “efforting” you might as well be looking for one thing and going towards something else. Don’t do that. Wherever you are is where you’re at; just hang out there, whether it’s at the top of the hill or the bottom. If we push too much we stop the very investigation we are trying to do. The clarity IS the confusion; this will not show up as a relative understanding. Just look at the confusion. If there’s no one there, the confusion is just dependent origination.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hv-fdcvUqeA&t=1s