Don’t encourage yourself to be more awake. This is like candy for ego. The self-centeredness just loves this. It gets fat and fluffy being a better meditator, being more mindful, be

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Bg4YHY9MxIEing more aware. If you say to yourself “I have to be more aware” it’s not going to work because it’s circular if you try to be somebody else. You have to be genuine! You have to be who you are.