While your going through all that you are going through. Remember that it's not all about what people hear you say you doing. More thoe what people see you doing.Let your words be your bond! I love you. God has not given us the spirit of fear but of power,love and a sound mind. Even if u ain't there yet( no one is)just keep going thoe! Don't give up please. So many people wanna see you give up. Don't do it! You really got this. God REALLY GOT YOU ,IF U WANT HIM TO. EVEN WEN WE DONT HE STILL GOT OUR BACK! I LOVE YOU MY KINGS AND QUEENS