For a long time, I was foggy in my mind and thought that if I swept my problems under the rug that everything would go away, but actually, what I did was cause an explosion to occur. My mind became so cluttered with problems that I only thought negatively of any situation when I had never found that God could provide me with what I needed. 

Whenever I was at my lowest, looking back at myself I knew I had to change. I was sick of hiding what I felt inside. Despite all the guilt, the pain, the slander, the backstabbing, and betrayal, when I gave it all up to God, it was the best day of my life. The only thing I could do to change was to stop what I was doing and give up my past life, where only destruction could be my reward. 

I say these things because I know that there are others who are going through similar situations as I did, and I would consider it worth it if I could just help one person. It takes a lot of time, energy, sacrifice, on my part to produce these episodes for those listeners that need someone they can relate to. Eventually, I realize that I don't have to be stuck here, but I need to first find the courage to pull those problems from under the carpet and present them to my creator, and he will provide the rest.