This is a personal episode, recorded the day before my son Luca’s birthday.

I’m sharing a story from a family holiday in Italy where, despite being in a beautiful place with people I love, I found myself reactive and irritated.

It wasn’t really about them. It was about what I hadn’t acknowledged in myself.

When something painful is present, whether that’s grief, stress, or something unresolved, it doesn’t stay contained. It starts shaping how you interpret everything.

Small interactions feel loaded. Neutral moments feel personal. You start noticing what people aren’t doing, how they’re getting it wrong, how they’re not showing up for you.

Before you realise it, you’re in a mental loop where everyone else feels like the problem.

In this episode, I break down what’s actually happening in those moments.

We look at the difference between feeling an emotion and building a story around it, how self-pity shows up as grievance and injustice, and why this pattern often looks like self-care when it isn’t.

If you’ve ever:

• Found yourself irritated by people you normally care about
• Felt like others aren’t showing up for you in the way you want
• Built mental lists of what people are doing wrong
• Felt more sensitive or reactive than usual
• Thought “no one really cares about how I feel”

In this episode, we cover:

• What’s actually happening when everyone feels annoying
• The grievance and injustice pattern (victim saboteur)
• How unprocessed emotion shows up in your relationships
• The shift from self-pity to self-empathy
• What it looks like to interrupt the pattern in real time

It’s rarely about other people.

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