who decides who’s worthy of fame

most dreams are others’ makings

curse blighted

sleep depraved

a part of me

integrity

still worth saving

late at night

up naming my fears

they burn like hurtful cravings

this steady heart is breaking

down

I’ll earn your respect

when I learn I’m finally enough

I’ve made enough friends

but every part of me’s still numb

I gave you my best

am I finally done

I’ve learned to accept

that I should’ve won

no surprise my fears learned to wait

return with perfect timing

numbing nights won’t stop the pain

breathe it in

weed it out

fuck, it’s still trying

double down

I consecrate

my perfect life

the future you hate

glory bound

these iron chains

rust but never break

I’ll earn your respect

when I learn I’m finally enough

I’ve made enough friends

but every part of me’s still numb

I gave you my best

am I finally done

I’ve won

I’ve won

I’ve won

VICTORY

suffocating

fighting alone

eliminate the doubt and breathe

learning my success is my own

no fangs

all broken teeth

half a smile

but i know

it’s enough

it’s enough

it’s enough

I gave it up

came back to me

that little dream is changing

I’ve grown

willing minds

accept defeat

failure’s not the future I chose

realize reality’s

guided by what’s inside of my head

I’ve won

I’ve won again