Have you ever avoided your instrument? Stopped singing? Felt triggered the moment you tried to create?

You’re not broken. You might just be in musical jail.

In this episode I get personal about something I’ve never fully said out loud before — the years I couldn’t pick up my guitar because it took me straight back to a before time I wasn’t ready to face. Heartbreak. Criticism. Shame that wasn’t even mine to carry.

I talk about what it finally took to come home to it, why our earliest musical wounds can lock us out of our own creativity, and why reclaiming your instrument — or your voice — is one of the most powerful healing moves you can make.

In this episode: → Why painful early experiences with music can create an unconscious “ban” on creating → How shame gets attached to the things we love most → The moment I finally admitted my guitar was triggering me — and what shifted → Why your instrument isn’t the enemy — it’s a portal back to yourself → How to take the first small step back toward your own expression

Journal Prompt: Is there something you stopped doing — singing, playing, creating, speaking up — because someone made you feel you didn’t deserve it? What would it mean to pick it up again?

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