As 1 Corinthians 6:19 states; “Don’t you know that your body is a temple of the Holy Spirit who is in you, whom you have from God? You are not your own.” So w/that being said, why are you trying to control every aspect of your being as if you can? Don’t give the enemy the space to exploit you. Take up his yoke as you carry your cross! You will find rest for your souls. Matthew 11:29. God bless you!