Starting a church sounds exciting, faith-filled, and maybe even a little glamorous—but the truth? Most days feel more like stumbling forward with equal parts hope and chaos. In this very first episode of Confessions of a Church Planter, Martin pulls back the curtain on the beginnings of planting a church with his wife, Nicole. From the weight of leaving behind comfort, to figuring things out as you go, this episode is an honest (and slightly unpolished) confession: we don’t always know what we’re doing—but we know the One who does.

If you’ve ever stepped into something bigger than yourself and thought, “What have we gotten into?”—this one’s for you.