We always put ourselves in these temporary happiness situations. We would rather lean on material things before we choose to lean on each other. It's sad how we buy love, or wear love, or eat love. Though acknowledging from the inside it isn't love at all just space of things to fill the void of emptiness and loneliness. I myself, have been in that void seeing people lean on material things before they chose to lean on me. Drinking their emotions, falling for every guy they see or chasing the "bad bitch" persona. I've walked in the shadows staying out the way from people because of the disconnection. Feeling alone and separate from people because I too was avoiding something. I wanted to always belong to someone or something not realizing I only needed to belong to myself and love myself. My friends were just as mislead and beastly as I was. I knew people were awakening but I also knew the ego was badly bruised and misinformed. So I knew this "spiritual agenda" had an agenda of its own and the void would only become more deep and dark. We are mental slaves and we are conditioned to evolve away from each other. We are wired to find something to be offended by or dissatisfied of instead of truly enjoying the journey of life and love. We are terribly mislead, badly abused and abusive as humanity. We heal away from each other instead of together. We blame everyone before ourselves and we will cut everyone off before we hear or listen to the reasons. We think we know enough to be better but all we really know is how we want to look, or what we want to wear. We'll leave good people in the dust before we realize our own wicked ways and this is why we are living in the End of days🙏