In the very first episode of She Who Receives, I’m taking you back to where my relationship with love began, from my earliest childhood crush to the eight-year relationship I was convinced would last forever.

I share the moment that quietly changed everything: the end of that relationship, and the sentence that stayed with me for over a decade.

“Don’t be so available in your next relationship.” 

At the time, I had no idea what it meant. I only knew it hurt.

What followed was a long journey of self-exploration, healing, and pattern-breaking that ultimately shaped the work I do today. This episode is the beginning of that story, and the foundation for everything that comes next.

In this episode, I share:

• How my early fascination with love and relationships began
• The eight-year relationship that shaped my understanding of partnership
• The breakup moment that sparked a decade-long journey of self-discovery
• What “don’t be so available” actually revealed about self-abandonment and emotional availability
• The patterns I began to notice across relationships, and why I was the common denominator
• How this journey laid the groundwork for self-sovereignty, polarity, and healing relationship dynamics
• The beginning of what would later become the SELF Method