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What happens when you don’t have time to grieve?

In this deeply honest episode of Encounters at the Well, Amy sits down with Kellie Bradshaw to talk about delayed grief, survival mode, and what faith looks like when loss keeps coming and life keeps demanding more.

Kellie shares her story of profound and repeated loss, including stillbirth, miscarriage, and the tragic death of her 18-year-old son while in military training. Within one year, she buried two children. At the same time, she was caring for a medically fragile baby, navigating serious health diagnoses within her family, supporting her husband through cancer, building a home, homeschooling, and simply trying to keep everyone afloat.

There was no quiet space to fall apart. No season where everything paused.

Grief was squeezed into the cracks of time.

In this conversation, you will hear what “delayed grief” can really look like:

• Living in constant triage mode
• Pushing emotions aside to survive
• Feeling robbed of the opportunity to mourn
• Carrying anger toward God without realizing it
• Struggling to feel joy even during beautiful milestones
• Wondering if it is too late to process what happened

Kellie vulnerably shares how she coped when counseling wasn’t an option. She talks about journaling, including what she calls a “junk journal” where she poured out raw, unfiltered prayers to God. She describes putting in an “emotional epidural” just to keep going, and how that wall of protection eventually became something God gently began to crack open years later.

You will hear about the moment God prompted her, three separate times, to attend GriefShare more than a decade after her losses. Through that process, she realized that grief buried is not grief healed.

Amy and Kellie also talk about faith in the middle of unanswered prayers. What does it mean to trust a loving God when the plan feels unbearable? How do you reconcile asking God to “keep my baby safe” and then watching that child go to heaven?

This episode explores:

• The difference between peace and the absence of pain
• How heaven becomes deeply real after loss
• Why grief does not follow a textbook timeline
• The side effects of living in survival mode for years
• What it means to walk toward Jesus even when you are not ready to fully open the door

Kellie shares a powerful image God gave her during one of her lowest moments: standing at the edge of a collapsed bridge, unable to fix the rubble, and seeing a cross stretched across the ravine. The invitation was simple. Keep walking toward Him.

If you are the woman who had to be strong for everyone else…
 If your grief only shows up when you are alone at night…
 If you feel like you missed your chance to mourn properly…
 If you are afraid to revisit what you buried…

This conversation is for you.

It is not too late to grieve.
 It is not too late to heal.
 And it is never too late to let God meet you in the cracks.

The episode closes with a prayer for women who are busy, weary, and quietly carrying loss. If you or someone you love is navigating delayed grief, share this episode. Healing begins when we stop pretending we are fine and start walking toward the One who already knows.

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