The contrast between my old self and new self is the thinest of vails...

Because going back to the old me is only a feeling of giving up away.

or not doing the things scheduled in my diary...

or worse, letting a negative comment derail me.

Like when I first started writing. I didn't get any negative comments externally, but the biggest critic wasn't a keyboard warrior, but the voice in my head.

and that voice hated the fact I was trying to better myself.

Over and over and over again it told me that was a pointless exercise trying to gain new skill, because there would be no use for it. You won't help anyone...

Like my first CrossFit workout.

Like my second CrossFit workout

Like my third CrossFit workout...

I knew what was coming and it wasn't going to be pleasurable.

Neither of myself nor my ego wanted to go though the physical pain of 12 minutes of breathing fire.

Equally, neither of us wanted to start getting up at silly o'clock to get shit done before work too...

But no matter how much my ego and my real self protested, I decided to own my life.

Own my mind.

Own my body.

Own my relationships.

Own my business growth.

I wish I could say that following my self-imposed schedule has been an easy process.

It hasn't, especially when you throw in to the mix family, illness, household chores, fun time, parents evening, weekends, night time routines and work to pay the bills.

Yet today marks my 171st Facebook post which astonishes me.

Said differently. That's book number 2 in 19 days time.

But I could have equally done nothing over 171 days.

Like last night. It marked my 100th CrossFit workout which has led to a breakthrough in my mind...

Which led to having a purpose in life.

To leading a mission to make impact in peoples lives through the Kinsmen Regiment.

Which turned into crazy never been done before challenges to get military homeless off the streets.

Which has turned in to a world of possibilities to create a better world. To live a better life. To take total responsibility for who I am and what I will do.

To live a challenge based life no matter how hard the things I want to achieve in my life look...

This momentum came from nothing but asking, "What if..."

What if I don't...?

What if I do...?

What are the possibilities...?

But the question that really scares me on a daily basis is getting to the point where I have to ask myself, "Why didn't i...?

The only antidote to this question is to keep building.