As God very often will speak and minister to me through his word. I wrote and recorded this for it was an answer to a cry of my heart concerning the internal conflict I often experience happening in me, as well as around me. I know we all have our issues of our hearts, and we are all doing our best to fight the good fight of faith. “But what is actually going on God?” Was my question. Why if this is Jesus’ life am I still experience conflict internally and often expressing it externally? Am I really saved? Is this really your life now? How does it seem like I still have so much control, and able to make such horrible decisions? What is going on with this life?