In this part 2 episode I focus on the link between pain, grief and self-abandonment and how I learnt to recognize the patterns within myself. I tell the story of how my last breakup back in 2023, the most amicable and freeing breakup I had ever experienced in my life, opened my eyes to the ways in which I tend to unconsciously abandon myself in relationships. The healing work I had done prior years, revealed some outdated patterns, behaviours and preconceived notions of love that needed to be corrected because it always lead to self-sabotage and/or heartbreak. I share this story as I was reminded of this period of my life 4 weeks ago when I was journalling because life felt overwhelming and as I was reading the words I just wrote down back to myself the pain and grief felt familiar and old. I was yet facing another test/challenge and I was being invited into another descent into my heart and womb to face the the parts of me I am might still be hiding from, shut down and the parts I might still be unwilling to let go of in order to receive what I have been asking for.