Hi, and welcome to The Journey Never Ends.

Today, we're going to talk about moods.

So for me, when someone asks me, what is my favorite thing to do in my spare time?

Really, my kind of blanket answer is whatever I'm in the mood for at that moment.

Which maybe is a way of telling you, hey, I'm bipolar.

Anyways,

when it comes to this concept,

I want to just highlight why I think it's a pretty clever response.

And it's because if you're in the mood to watch TV and lay around in a warm blanket,

but you're at a concert,

that's not going to be the best thing for you to do.

That's not going to be your favorite thing to do.

compared to if you were at the concert and you wanted to be in a loud area dancing

around and in that mood.

So that being said, whatever I'm in the mood for is always the best thing.

And obviously my mood changes.

So how this, what happens in life is that I have to function with a lot of fluidity.

And so, you know, my plans are fluid.

What are you doing this weekend?

Whatever I want.

And I think that might be why I'm single and enjoying being single.

But really, it just kind of comes down to me adapting how I plan my free time with my mood.

And maybe that's not a good thing.

You know, maybe you need to do things that you're not in the mood for.

But it's my weekend.

When I lived in San Diego every weekend, I called it a vacation.

And I never had plans.

I would just live my life.

And so I live a fluid life, I guess, as a way that I adapt to my moods.

And that's why most people, when they see me, they don't know I'm bipolar.

They don't know I struggle because I'm normally just doing things that I'm in the mood for.

And so I'm really happy to be there.

I, as a young girl, would say to people that I don't have to do anything.

And I think in the core of it,

that comes from like deep depression when I felt like I couldn't do anything.

So I rationalize it as like, I don't have to do anything.

Like,

so in that concept,

I really think that I'm in control,

which I am to say,

I don't have to do anything.

There's consequences for every decision, but at the end of the day, I don't have to do anything.

And that just means that everything I decide to do,

I'm very excited about and I will do,

I will be present and I will do it.

So I would get,

you know,

weird responses from people where they'd be like,

yeah,

well,

I don't want to do things too,

but I have to do them.

And I would just be like, no, I don't have to do anything.

So that's kind of my concept on that.

But at the end of the day,

what I really want to talk to you guys about is questioning how you go about your day,

how you plan things,

what you expect out of yourself,

and really questioning some of it to figure out what works for you.

I've realized that having very rigid plans months in advance normally doesn't work for me.

I like more spontaneity.

And again, that's might be part of my disorder, my personality.

I don't know.

But at the end of the day, it's something that works for me.

And that's the adaptability that I think I need to function at my highest quality of life.

So just wanted to share that with you guys.

I mean,

when it comes down to it,

don't judge yourself on how you run your day and how other people run their day,

especially all those people on the internet telling them,

telling you what their day is like,

but know that you can adapt your day.

You can adapt your schedule.

You can adapt your routine to fit your life.

So always question how you can increase your quality of life and adapt

intelligently to make your life do that.

Life is about quality.

Anyways, that's all I wanted to talk about today.

Y'all have a great day.

Much love.

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