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Welcome back to The smashes system podcast, I’m Nino Prodan. A while back, I used to have a problem controlling my temper when someone did something wrong, or I felt like someone was trying to offend me, I would lash out. And I would do on that anger all the time. And if I didn’t lash out enough earlier on, sometimes I would hold it in. And that way, I could save it up, and then find a way to teach people a lesson. help them understand what they did end, give them what they deserved. And that would really focus and stew in that anger. It would consume me consume my attention for most of the day, sometimes, sometimes days on end, I would think about all the scenarios about what I should have done, or how they should have acted if they were acting appropriately. The treating me correctly, are all the witty quips that I could have used, sometimes even thought of ways to have just avoided the whole interaction to start with. And I would tell myself, I can’t believe they would make me this angry. Why would they want to make me angry like this? Did they not respect me enough? But I started to realize how much time it was taking away from me how much my attention was going towards being the person that I didn’t want to be. I didn’t feel good. being angry, didn’t feel good getting back at people after the fact. Yeah, it felt good to plan it all out, and then put it in the place and see them experience pain and and then I would feel bad afterward. I would say why did I do that? They didn’t deserve that. Yeah, I was mad for them making me mad. But it’s kind of like that saying have an iPhone. an AI leaves everybody blind. And that started to come into my mind. Like, where was this retribution anger gonna take me to in my life. And I started thinking about how much of my life it was taking away. How much of my time that I spent stewing on it could have been out enjoying myself, spending time with friends and family, spending time having fun and enjoying myself, rather than cycling through a loop. Sir, realizing that if I continued on with this kind of behavior, I could push away my close friends, make it hard to find new friends, push away family and anybody else that was that’s there to support me. I said to myself, I don’t want to lose these people. They’re important to me. So I started on my quest to get a hold of my anger, to be able to control it and stop it from ruining the things that I hold most dear in my life. That’s the people, the relationships. And what I found, I believe not only saved my relationships, but made them stronger and continues to strengthen my relationships, not only with the people I have known, but with everybody that I meet, and I’ll tell you more about that tomorrow.