What happens when the pain of childhood abuse grows into a desire for revenge?

In this deeply honest conversation, my friend Vighnesh shares his remarkable testimony of surviving childhood sexual abuse, battling pornography addiction, wrestling with suicidal thoughts, and spending years searching for healing through meditation, various spiritual belief systems, psychedelics, trauma therapy, and conscious sexuality.

At one point, he had a detailed, violent plan to take revenge against the man who abused him.

But everything changed when he encountered Jesus Christ.

Instead of finding freedom through another healing modality, he discovered something he never expected: forgiveness, peace, and a relationship with the Heavenly Father that transformed his heart from the inside out.

This conversation explores what it means to be truly healed—not by pretending the past didn't happen, but by allowing Christ to meet us in our deepest wounds.

Whether you're wrestling with trauma, addiction, resentment, questions about faith, or simply wondering whether lasting healing is possible, I pray this episode offers hope.

In this episode, we discuss:

• Childhood sexual abuse and its lasting impact
 • Repressed memories and the search for healing
 • Pornography addiction and compulsive behaviors
 • Suicidal thoughts and fantasies of revenge
 • Meditation, religion, psychedelics, and spiritual searching
 • How Vighnesh encountered Jesus Christ
 • Forgiveness after profound betrayal
 • Spiritual warfare, prayer, and deliverance
 • Freedom from resentment and anxiety
 • Healing childhood trauma through faith
 • Following Jesus after New Age spirituality
 • Finding peace, purpose, and a new identity in Christ

My hope is that When Heaven Calls would become a place where honest conversations point us toward truth, healing, and the hope we have in Jesus.

If this episode encouraged you, consider subscribing, leaving a review, and sharing it with someone who may need this conversation today. It truly helps more people discover the podcast.

I'd also love to hear from you in the comments:

• What part of Vighnesh's story impacted you most?
 • Have you ever experienced God meeting you in an unexpected place?
 • What does forgiveness mean to you after hearing this conversation?

Thank you for being here.

Grace and peace,

Forest Soleil

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He tried everything.
      New age spirituality.
      Witchcraft.
      Astral projection.
      Drugs.
      Eastern religion.

Nothing satisfied… and things only got darker.

In this powerful episode of When Heaven Calls, Tom shares his raw, unfiltered testimony—from childhood trauma, homelessness, and deep involvement in the occult… to terrifying spiritual encounters that nearly destroyed him.

He wasn’t searching for Jesus.
In fact, he was running from Christianity.

But when everything else failed—and the darkness became undeniable—he cried out to Jesus… and everything changed.

This episode covers:

• Growing up in violence, trauma, and abuse
• Homelessness and life on the streets
• Deep involvement in new age spirituality and witchcraft
• Spiritual agreements with false eastern religion gods like Buddha, Krishna, Vishnu
• Cult participation with a group believed to be psychic vampires
• Drug use and altered states to access the spiritual realm
• Encounters with dark spiritual entities
• The reality of spiritual warfare
• A moment of desperation that led to calling on Jesus
• Radical transformation, healing, and redemption

If you’ve ever:

• explored new age spirituality
• questioned whether all paths lead to God
• felt stuck in darkness or cycles you can’t break

This testimony is for you.

Each episode of the When Heaven Calls podcast shares full-length personal testimonies from men and women who explored the New Age, alternative spirituality, personal development, or secular paths—and who, through divine timing, encountered Christ in ways that changed everything.

You don’t need to have it all figured out to listen. These stories are shared without performance, pressure, or agenda—simply as a witness to what God is doing in real lives.

About the host:
Forest Soleil is a wife, mother, relationship coach, holistic childbirth educator and born again believer who hosts When Heaven Calls—a testimony-driven podcast centered on truth, repentance, and transformation through Jesus Christ.

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What does it actually look like to go from a life of promiscuity… to true purity and redemption?

In this powerful episode of When Heaven Calls, Kathryn shares her raw and honest testimony of transformation — how God met her in the middle of broken patterns, rewrote her identity, and led her into a completely new way of living.

This is a story about:

• Generational trauma that passes down the family line
• Struggling with sexual sin and identity
• The emptiness of chasing temporary fulfillment
• Encountering God in a real and personal way
• What true repentance and transformation actually looks like
• Healing from sexual abuse and the past
• Walking in purity, freedom, and purpose

If you’ve ever felt stuck in cycles you can’t break… this episode will speak directly to you.

About the host:
Forest Soleil is a wife, mother, relationship coach, holistic childbirth educator and born again believer who hosts When Heaven Calls—a testimony-driven podcast centered on truth, repentance, and transformation through Jesus Christ.
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Luis’ story is a powerful testimony of going from death to life.

After growing up without a father, serving in the military, and diving deep into new age spirituality, Luis found himself battling severe illness, fear, and spiritual confusion.

What began as a search for truth led him into darkness he didn’t fully understand—until one moment changed everything.

In a terrifying encounter with 7 demons, Luis was faced with a reality he couldn’t explain… and made a decision that would transform his life forever.

In this episode, we talk about:
• Father wounds and identity
• Military influence and spiritual deception
• New age beliefs and the pursuit of “oneness”
• Severe health decline and hitting rock bottom
• A real encounter with darkness
• Calling on Jesus and experiencing immediate change
• What it means to walk with Christ as a husband and father

This is a raw and honest conversation about spiritual reality, personal responsibility, and redemption.

If you’ve ever questioned what’s real, what’s true, or whether God still moves today—this episode is for you.

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Some people don’t lose their faith all at once. They lose it slowly—through grief, anger, betrayal, and survival.

In this episode of When Heaven Calls (true testimonies and extraordinary encounters of lives changed by Jesus), Forest Soleil sits down with Sage to share a raw, honest testimony: a father wound, childhood sexual abuse, and an anger that felt bigger than her body could hold… followed by years of searching for healing through New Age spirituality, tarot, deities, “self-work,” and plant medicine—only to discover that the peace she was chasing couldn’t be manufactured.

Sage shares what finally shifted everything: not trying harder, not another method, not more “shadow work”… but surrender. The kind that invites God the Father, the Holy Spirit, and the Word of God into the exact moment the anger rises—until it dissipates.

You’ll hear:

• Sage’s story of early loss, adoption, and how a father wound shaped her nervous system and relationships
• How anger became her identity—and why it always came out on the people she loved
• Her journey through Catholic school, spiritual seeking, Hindu deities, chanting/mantras, tarot, and New Age communities
• A terrifying DMT experience that later made sense through Scripture (Ecclesiastes, Psalms, and the reality of eternity)
• The moment conviction hit over screen addiction and “scroll culture”—and the dream that led her to delete everything
• How God used community, biblical teaching, and simple obedience to rebuild her life
• Why the New Age “heal yourself” hamster wheel left her exhausted—and how Jesus brought real peace
• What it means to stop striving, stop trying to save yourself, and let God lead

If you’ve ever felt exhausted from managing your own healing… if you’ve carried rage you didn’t know what to do with… if you’re Jesus-curious but skeptical… or if you’re coming out of New Age spirituality and craving something real—this testimony may feel like permission to rest.

Comment below: Which part of Sage’s story hit you the hardest?
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📌 About the show
When Heaven Calls is a Christian testimony podcast hosted by Forest Soleil, featuring real stories of transformation, deliverance, and encounters with Jesus—especially for seekers, skeptics, and those coming out of New Age spirituality.

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Marion loved Jesus — deeply.
Then she became convinced she no longer needed Him.

In this powerful testimony, Marion shares how a genuine encounter with Christ in her early twenties transformed her life — and how years later she quietly walked away, believing she had spiritually evolved.

For twelve years, she explored New Age spirituality, psychedelics, self-salvation, conscious community, and the belief that all paths lead to the same truth.

Outwardly, her life looked spiritually rich.
Inwardly, something was missing — the intimacy she once had with God.

This is not a story of rebellion — it’s a story of discernment.
Of breadcrumbs versus the whole loaf.
Of humility, spiritual deception, and the quiet realization that no amount of seeking can replace relationship.

In this conversation, Marion speaks candidly about:

• Loving Jesus deeply, then believing she had evolved beyond Him
• Leaving Christianity without anger — and discovering what was lost
• New Age spirituality, psychedelics, and “all paths lead to God” thinking
• Sexual liberation, self-salvation, and subtle spiritual contracts
• Why the New Age offers breadcrumbs — not transformation
• The cost of returning to Jesus after walking away
• Grace, repentance, and the peace she couldn’t manufacture

If you’ve ever felt spiritually full — yet strangely empty…
If you’ve ever wondered whether growth means leaving Jesus behind…
This testimony will meet you where you are.

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In this episode of When Heaven Calls, Jonas shares his journey from atheism and “higher self” spirituality to Jesus — and how discernment helped him escape New Age false authority, deceptive spiritual leadership, and unhealthy intentional communities.

Jonas never set out to follow a guru. Like many people today, he was sincerely seeking truth, healing, and a connection to God through intuition, inner guidance, and New Age spirituality. Along the way, he encountered environments that claimed spiritual authority, healing power, and even the voice of Jesus — but something didn’t sit right.

In this honest testimony, Jonas reflects on:

• Growing up atheist and searching for meaning
• “Higher self” spirituality and intuitive guidance
• New Age healing sessions and channeled authority
• Recognizing deception and false spiritual leadership
• How discernment exposed what wasn’t from God
• Finding clarity, truth, and grounding in Jesus

This conversation is for anyone who has felt spiritually confused, misled by charismatic leaders, or caught between faith, intuition, and truth — and is learning to discern the difference.

I encourage you to listen all the way through. The clarity at the end is worth the journey.

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When Heaven Calls | Episode 3 — Jess’ Testimony

Jess was put on a stack of psychiatric medications as a teenager and told she was bipolar. Then one night—staring at a bag of pill bottles—she heard an audible voice stop her in her tracks:

“You’re not bipolar.”

In this episode, Jess shares:

• being medicated as a minor with no real autonomy
• the moment God spoke out loud and began unraveling a false identity
• flushing multiple psychiatric medications and what happened next
• her father’s stage 4 liver cirrhosis, a deathbed moment… and a miraculous turnaround
• New Age spirituality, demonic fear/extremes, and how Jesus brought clarity and peace
• motherhood, postpartum rage, exhaustion, and why “living water” became real again

If you’ve questioned healing culture, carried heavy diagnoses, walked through addiction in your family, or you’re a mom who feels depleted—this testimony is for you.

🙏 If this testimony stayed with you, send it to one person who’s spiritually searching.

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In Episode 02 of When Heaven Calls, Forest Soleil sits down with Sophia for an honest, unfiltered testimony of spiritual searching, trauma, and the moment everything changed.

Sophia shares her journey through New Age spirituality—tarot cards, trauma work, the self help hamster wheel, psychedelics, channeling, and identity rooted in wounding—and how what began as a sincere desire for healing slowly led her into darkness, fear, and spiritual fragmentation. She speaks candidly about the “orphan” identity that shaped her inner world, the grief work that became a trap, and the subtle ways spiritual practices can capitalize on unresolved trauma.

This conversation traces the turning point: conviction without shame, a profound encounter with Jesus, and the freedom that came through surrender, repentance, and returning to truth. Sophia reflects on burning tarot cards that once held so much meaning, breaking spiritual agreements, choosing obedience over spiritual highs, and learning what it means to heal in a way that bears real fruit.

This episode is for anyone who has:

• Explored New Age spirituality or trauma-focused healing
• Felt stuck in grief, identity work, or spiritual striving
• Questioned where certain practices were truly leading
• Felt drawn back—or drawn for the first time—to Jesus

You don’t need to have everything figured out to listen. These stories are shared simply to witness what God is doing in real lives—and to remind us that no one is too far gone, too confused, or too late to come home.

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Thank you for being here. I’m praying these stories reach exactly who they’re meant to reach.

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In this first full episode of When Heaven Calls, my friend Micka Cain shares the wild, honest, and deeply personal path that led her from spiritual searching—and a season of New Age influence—back to the solid ground of Jesus Christ.

Micka grew up around ministry and faith, but her story includes real trauma, confusion, and detours that many truth-seekers will recognize. She was at Columbine during the 1999 shooting and shares how that moment marked her life, her nervous system, and her relationship with God—without any graphic detail.

From there, Micka’s journey spans global travel, community living, and up-close exposure to spiritual darkness she didn’t have language for at the time. She shares about:

• A childhood foundation of faith (and the pressure that came with it)
• The Columbine tragedy and the way God preserved her life
• Years of seeking healing through different communities and ideologies
• Encounters that challenged the “all paths lead to the same place” narrative
• The Costa Rica rainbow community & festival scene, psychedelics, and the moment it began to feel spiritually unsafe
• The turning point: baptism, repentance, and falling in love with the Word again
• What changes when you stop striving to “heal yourself” and surrender to God’s design

This episode is for anyone who has explored the New Age, alternative spirituality, occult practices, or personal development—and quietly felt that something was missing. It’s also for those who grew up around Christianity, walked away, and now feel the pull to return… or meet Jesus for the first time in a way that’s unmistakably real.

Gentle note: This episode mentions Columbine and heavy relational seasons, shared with care and without graphic detail.

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